What a day.....

Work was horrible! I really, really, really, can't wait to find another job. I have been looking but no luck yet. I think that they are trying to fire me or push me to quit before I am ready. I seem to be in the middle of a blaming session with another one of my co-worker's. I can not stand her....She is the pure definition of a back stabbing, 2 faced female. Oh well, she thinks that she is a Harley chick but lets have the truth be told.....He husband who cheats on her has one of the smallest Harley's made and she has never been on that bike because there is no way that her FAT ass can fit on that bike with him. He did allow her to put a Harley sticker on her truck. I guess it makes her feel pretty cool and not feel like she is really an old fat hag. WOW! I guess that I am being mean today! I just don't care anymore.

I went to a new ob gyn doctor and to my surprise this new doctor is willing to let me have my tubes tied. My insurance will cover 80% so I have to check on how much this will really cost me. I hope that it is not too much. It will still be cheaper than having another baby. I only have my daughter but Greg has 4 and the ages range from 10-22. I have Anna who is 8 and we raise her and she might as well be his anyway. I really want this. I do not want another child. I love Anna but I don't want to start all over again.

Work has been bothering me so much that I am hurting my teeth because I am grinding my teeth trying to keep my opinions to myself so I do not get fired. You have no idea how hard that is for me. I have to call a dentist tomorrow to check that out.

I have had a few drinks tonight. I am trying to relax my face so I do not hurt my teeth anymore.
I need a vacation so badly.

I have to get the trash ready to go out. I will write more tomorrow.

i wish i was a kid again

I can not belive that they have a 4 day weekend. They spend more time out of school then they do in. I am in favor of schoold all year long!!! Anna is driving me crazy. I feel bad for my boyfriend because he will be home with her Mon. and Tues. while I am at work.

We finally bought a playstation 2 today but I can not find a Tetris game anywhere. This has been a very boring weekend. Not too much to write about. We has a snow/ice storm last night but the roads are clear and I guess I will have to go to work tomorrow.

I hope I will have some luck with the job searching this week. I need a vacation. Maybe I will talk to my best friend and see if she wants to go somewhere for a weekend. The girls at the gym were going to go out last night but the weather changed our plans. We have to set up a time to go out again soon. We have so much fun when we all go out.

Life is good today!!!

I had my job interview today and it went ok.....I am waiting on a call back from them. I am not sure if I want to take the job though......It is a family owned business but they have two different company's so what they want is two for the price of one. Oh well, I have another job interview tomorrow. I will let you know how that goes.

My really good news is that one of the manager that has been giving me a hard time was demoted today and transferred to another store!!!!!! I am doing a happy dance all over the floor!!!!! YEAH FOR ME!!! The only thing that I am mad about is that I was not there to laugh in his face when it was done.......I had a co-worker call me to tell me the gossip of the day. I know that I should not be this happy about it but I am. Now I just have to wait for Nancy to be fired and life will be grand. Don't get me wrong...I am still going to leave that place as soon as I can find another job.

Life is good and I will end this on a good note tonight.

have I ever mentioned that I hate my job???

I should be getting ready for work...but who cares! Anna is in her room putting all of her clothes in her new dresser. We put it together on Friday and I swear that I will NEVER but anything that we need to assemble Ever again.

It snowed on Saturday and it was coming down hard. Greg called me at work (he never calls me when I am working). He told me that the weather was really getting bad and that he thought I should come home early so I left work 4 hrs early and don't you know as soon as I got home the snow stopped and they started to clear the roads. Now I have lost almost 5 hrs of pay due to this snow and they will not let me make up that time. I drive a tiny neon that will not get through the snow. Which one of my managers was going to come shovel me out of the snow if I got stuck? NO ONE! How can they hold it against me for trying to stay safe? I am willing to work the hours and be productive.........

I have a job interview tomorrow. I hope everything goes ok. I am also getting everyone's e-mail address from work so they can still buy Avon from me through the internet when I am gone. I hope that I will be putting in my two weeks notice this week..........Wish me luck!

My baby is 8 today!

We went to the harbor yesterday to celebrate her birthday. We went to Port Discovery and all I can really say is that I am glad that I did not spend my money on the tickets (I have a friend who has tickets through her husbands job). That place is really geared towards 2,3,and 4 year olds. I checked it out online but they made it seem like it would be perfect for Anna(they lied).

After that we went to the aquarium and that was real fun. We took lots of pictures but I can not post any of them because I am still waiting for my boyfriend to show me how to set that up. We saw the dolphin show and I got a really good picture of a shark(his teeth are huge).

After that we went to dinner in Little Italy. We went to Sabitinos and Anna was really impressed she felt like such a grown up. She was amazed that they brought water to the table and then asked us what we wanted to drink-so she go two drinks. She ordered meat ravioli but though it tasted weird because she is so use to eating them from a can. Oh well, she got extra cherries in her drink and ice cream for dessert. She told me that she thought that we were going to eat at a fast food restaurant. She said "Wow mom! They even have a cloth on the table. I hope I don't get it dirty." She was grinning from ear to ear when she saw that she was big enough to be in a "really expensive" restaurant. The truth of the matter is that it really was not expensive at all. We would have paid the same price to eat at an all you can eat Bob Evans or Denny's.

We had a really great time. I almost forgot to tell you that she bought herself a little frog from the aquarium(not real). She loves it and I think it was the best choice she could have made. She got $25 to spend on herself and she bought a $4 frog but she loves it.

Today she is in her room watching movies. She is sick and I gave her some medicine and she just woke up from a nap. I am going to go watch a care bear cartoon with her now.

waiting for my phone to ring

RING YOU STUPID PHONE!!!!!!!!!

It is such a miserable day outside. Sleep! That's all I really want to do today. I have been sitting on the computer all morning sending out resumes. Can you belive that I lost my desk yesterday to that little punk Jeff!!!!! It is not worth making a HUGE deal out of because I do not plan on being there to much longer. I was happy that one of our manager got fired this past weekend for stealing:) justice comes to everyone eventually-I am just to impatient to wait for it to happen.

I asked one of the girls I work with if she will still sell Avon out of the store for me and I can give her orders to her at cost or give her some of the profit. I will talk to her more about it once I get another job lined up.

everyone keep your fingers crossed for me. I hope I can get an interview lined up sometime next week. Oh, well....I guess I will go back to sending out more resumes.

Ramblings

As soon as I finish this entry I have some books to get ready to pass out this week. I sell Avon and I was not a very good Avon lady this year. Walking up and down the street dragging my daughter and 50+ books to hang on door knobs was not my idea of fun this year. I have been selling at work but I am not sure how much longer I will have my job to sell at. Besides, most of the women I work with don't care about their looks as much as most women. I work in a Home Improvement store and the women are different from what I am use to. I have even noticed how I have changed since I have been there.

Oh well, my plan this year is to lose 20lbs before my wedding in November. We are planning on taking a cruise so I want to make sure I can have fun shopping for my new clothes.

As soon as I get my boyfriend to show me how to work my digital camera I will take a picture of my hooker boots for you to see. I just love them:) It has been 5 years since I last wore high heels so I have to break them in around the house before I can wear them out in public. They are so cool! They are blue with pictures of people on them and they lace up........they can be worn with jeans and a plain top.............I can't wait to show you.

Wow! My baby will be 8 in one week. I can't belive it! Her father has no idea what he is missing out on. My boyfriend has been there for her since she was 2 and he is really all she knows. Anna knows her father but they want nothing to do with each other. Anna really took it hard when he married my sister(I know....I know). I really do not have anything to do with my family. They are all crazy! I still deal with my mother(sometimes, and only because I have to right now). There is so much history and so much drama that I will go into more detail later.

Well, it is time for me to get my Avon books together so they will be ready for me this week. I hope I get some new customers. I may be out of a job soon. HELP!!!

job search

I have had the worst two days...........I was pulled into my managers office yesterday and was told that I am mean to one of our sissy office boys (bitch boy). To make a long story short I work in a home improvement store and I do office work. Our office is failing due to a manager that is not doing her job. My store manager, sales manager, and my direct manager are about to lose their job so they are trying to get me to take that fall for them. They will all lose their job in time. Anyways, I have been on the computer all day looking for a new job. I hope I get some calls soon. I had the day off of work today and I work this weekend but I will be back on the computer on Tuesday and Wednesday looking for something.

I am tired and it has been a long day. I hope to write again tomorrow.

Thursday 1/6/05

Hello,
I am wasting my time right now. I should be getting ready for work but I can not get myself motivated this morning.

Tomorrow is pay day:-)

I think that I will pick up a bottle of absolute tonight after work. I have wasted enough time I think I will get ready for work now. I hope I get a child support check today(fingers crossed). Sometimes right before he has a court date I will get a small check ($50). Wish me luck!

My other baby

Why do you hate me so much? I feed you, bathe you, I just bought you a new CD player......why are you so mean to me??? I talk to you when I know you are hungry so what is the deal? Why would you leave me stranded like that? I can't wait to get rid of you!!! You change your mind to much for me!!! I hope that you have a wonderful life with someone else!

Let me tell you what happened. My car died on me on the way back to work from lunch. I was turning up a hill at a traffic light and it just died on me. I called my boyfriend to help me after two guys so kindly pushed my car into the gas station(only because I blocked the road and they could not get by). I was only 7 feet away from the station. Here is the worst part......my car dying on me would not be so bad if it stayed dead or if when I take it to my mechanic he tells me that there is a problem. The answer I always get is that it is running fine and it does so I just don't understand. The conclusion that I have come to is that my car is like a spoiled brat and just decides to take a break and then it starts running again in a few min.

No! My car did not overheat. It just hates me!!! Oh well, it was a funny site to see me on the way back to work after my car's break because I was yelling at it....people must have thought that I was crazy!!!!!!

I will talk to you later!

child support/gym/poppin cherries/Victoria secret

Ok let me first start with the whole child support thing.......when I came home for lunch I called them to see how far behind in payments my loser ex is and the GRAND TOTAL IS.......6,798.23! When will the court system wake up and do something about this??? He is suppose to pay $91 a week for our daughter but only pays when he goes to court and they make him pay. He needs to pay or go to jail. My problem now is that he moved to another county and I am not sure of his new address. I hope he goes to court Monday as schd. and gives them his new address. I think I will type up a letter to send to the court house once a week until they get tired of me and actually do something about his non-payment of child support. I don't need his money but I want what should be mine!!!

When I tried to get my workout in at the gym I walked around until I got mad and left....Everyone wants to workout now for there NEW YEARS RESOLUTION!!!!!!! Hey if you did not care in 2004 why do you care now????? The gym is so packed-I hate this time of year!!! I guess I will have to go back to my 5:30am workouts. Oh well, I left the gym and decided to go to the mall and spend my Victoria Secret gift card.

They are having the Semi-Annual Sale and they were packed. I did find my favorite body spray (passionate kisses) that the discontinued....I stocked up on that :) I asked the girl at the dressing room if she could give me a fitting to see if my bra size has changed any and I wear a 36F and she told me I am a 38D???? She is so wrong-I bought my body spray some undies and left....I still have $60 to spend and I don't know what to buy! They don't carry my correct bra size so I may go back and buy some more body lotion and spray. The first time I tried to get them to size me one girl told me I was a 34C and her co-worker checked to see of she was right and then I was told that I was a 36F. I give up with them.....do they know what they are doing in there???

My manager and I got into an argument because I love to flaunt that fact that I use to strip in her face because I know she thinks she is better then me but will not say it to my face. We started talking about the fact that my best friend has popped my cherry many times........
In case you do not know......

Poppin' a cherry means that she was my first at.........
1) making me my first mixed drink
2) hers was the first babyshower I ever went to
3) hers was the first house warming party I ever went to
4) She was the first woman to ever??.....????.....??????...........

Lets just say that we have been through a lot.......When I was explain this to a guy I work with she was getting so angry.....

Let me give you a short history on this woman....she is a 40 something woman who lost her husband who make a 6 figure income because she was sleeping with 17 year old boys and now she is remarried to a now 20 something chubby, dirtball and she now has 2 children over twenty and 3 children under 7 and one stepchild from her 20 something husband. I could understand if he was goodlooking but he is not????? I just don't get it??? Oh well...I forgot what my point was...I am tired and I have to get up early to work out.

Good Night:)

my life

I have just started my own blog!!! I go back to work tomorrow after a 4 day mini vacation. My baby girl goes back to school tomorrow (she is in 2nd grade). Her birthday is on the 16th of this month. I have talked her into a day at the harbor and dinner in Little Italy.

I really should get off the computer and start getting us ready for school and work tomorrow.........

I just got a call from my co-worker(she is even more backstabbing then my mother-I will explain that one later when I have more time) and she want me to come in early tomorrow. They always want me to do for them. I am only going into work early so I don't have to stay until 7pm (now my day will be shortened by 2hrs).

If anything interesting happens I will write back later.