Sunday, May 29, 2005

what do you think of the dress? Nice? Posted by Hello

I love this

I was looking online and I found the dress I want for my wedding. Greg and I are going to have a small(court house) wedding but I want a pretty dress. My parents will not pay for it and I do not want to feel cheated out of feeling pretty on our day. I think this dress is simple and very pretty. What do you think?

My friend has a new makeover

I just checked out Erin's blog and she had a new and improved look please stop by and say hi to her. The credit for Erin's new look and my new look goes to Martine. So please stop by and tell her how talented she is. I know I am asking a lot of everyone today but you will get over it in due time....why???? Because you love me!

Stop reading me already and be nice and friendly and give a comment to my friends. Thanks! (I am so bossy today)

Saturday, May 28, 2005

I am a tattoo chick

I have 3 tattoos and I love them. There is a story behind each one and I will get into those at a later post. I will say that the first tattoo is a Chinese symbol that means friendship. There are 6 of us that have the same tattoo and we all danced together I am really only friends with one of the girls today but it is a reminder of where I have been and the friends that I had....we did have some real good times. I got that tattoo(my first and it hurt the worst)I got that tattoo the night before my 20th birthday.

The second tattoo was with my daughters name and it took 1 1/2 hours for him to complete...I am not to fond of the wings but what can I do now...Anna loves it!

The third one it my boyfriends name. Yes we are still together. I have had the tattoo for over 4 years and you don't have to tell me I am stupid. I love Greg and we have been through a lot and I know that he is the best thing that has ever happened to me...I will never regret getting that tattoo with his name.

You have now seen a part of me that most people have not seen....and that means something coming from an ex-stripper!

tattoo on right ankle Posted by Hello

right shoulder tattoo Posted by Hello

tattoo on my neck Posted by Hello

James Part 9

I know I need to post another James story but now is the part that starts to make me upset and I can't believe I did not drop him at this point...I many signs did I need to have thrown at me before I realized that this guy was a pure jack ass!

Back to my story:

I was living back at home with mom and James and I were still talking to each other over the phone. I starting to slack off of my school work and was to worried about what kind of turns my life would take next. I never had a problem doing my school work when I was with James (maybe it helped me escape) but living back at home was just to much for me. I started slacking off and did not care as much about anything. It was a real hard transition for me to get use to.

It did not take to long before I left home again and James and I were staying at the motel again. I was still in school. As a matter of fact I had my school books with me and the police searched my backpack. I was in our room(it was the honeymoon suite)we had a waterbed and a heart shaped hot tub. It was the about 10am and James was outside with some guy he knew(I never met the guy before). The next thing I knew was James walking into the room and acting like a nut! He was worried because he saw a cop car. This was nothing new to me though because James was always paranoid. I was sitting on the waterbed and the cops walked into the room. They asked if they could search my bookbag because James and his friend were acting like they were up to something. I did not know what was going on and I remember being really upset and I let them search through my stuff. They then asked to heck the waterbed. I told them "sure, but you won't find anything" Well, guess what they did find something. When James walked in the room he came over to the bed and let the heroin go under the waterbed. I had no idea!

They took James to jail and left me with NO money and our room time was going to be up in about 2 hours. I had no car and I could not call anyone to help me out. I managed to talk to motel into giving me another room and I would have James pay as soon as he could get out.

I stayed in that room until 8 that night. James had got out sooner than that but he had to get some dope before he could get me(I found this out later). We stayed with a friend of his and a nice little apartment. His friends girlfriend had 2 kid but her other had custody of them both. This girl worked as a stripper...they had nothing to eat in the house. I was left alone in that house almost all the time while all James and his buddy got high with the strippers money. When the stripper came home all three of them would get high together. I was hating me life! This living arrangement did not stick for to long before I moved back home.

to be continued........

Friday, May 27, 2005

this is perfect

This is the way life will happen when Anna turns 18:

James: Today my baby girl's 18th birthday. I be so glad that this be my last child
support payment! Month after month, year after year, all those damn

So I call my baby girl, LaKeesha (Anna), to come to my house, and when she get
there, I say, "Baby girl, I want you to take this check over to yo momma
house and tell her this be the last check she ever be gettin' from me, and I
want you to come back and tell me the 'spression on yo mama'sface."

So, my baby girl take the check over to her momma. I be anxious to hear what
she say, and bout the 'spression on her face.

Baby girl walk through the door, I say, "Now what yo momma say 'bout that?"

She say to tell you that "you ain't my daddy" ... and watch the
'spression on yo face

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Prom night/my new outfit.

My brother Paul has his prom tonight. I think he is going to the prom by himself. I am sure he will have fun though. He did not want to go at first but I think mom and dad talked him into it. I never went to prom and I wish I did.

Paul graduates form high school on Wednesday and I had to go shopping tonight for something to wear. I hope it will be ok. I hate shopping when I have to find something because I can never find anything good. I am also a very awkward weight right now. I am now out of my size 10 pants and I now into a size 5. Tops fit me weird because a am very top may not be able to tell by the picture I am going to post but trust me.......

Let me know what you think. I am not sure I am going to go with this outfit or something else.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

I love when I am right

I am not sure if you remember my pet peeves? We were having our morning meeting and they wanted us to thanks one of our associates for seeing a "problem" and "taking care of it." guessed it....someone has to clean up a trail of mess that a dog left behind and from what I understand it was a VERY nasty mess. I hate to me the one who said "I told you so......but I told you so!" No wait....I take it back I LOVE that I was right.

I was tagged by Erin but I am so confused and I just don't get it?!?!

I feel like eating something really bad for dinner. I am not sure what I want I just want something I can't have.

Question.....should I color my post or keep with the white letters? If you are not sure click on the month of March or April and let me know what you think. I think that is all I have to say for now.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

I am so pretty!!!

Look at me world!!! I am so so pretty thanks to Martine. She is a very cool chick and I love her blog! She post some very interesting things. Please take a moment to visit her and tell how pretty she has made me.

Scroll down towards the bottom and check out the Betty Boop picture she threw in there for cool is that!?!?! I am so very happy with what she has done for me! Thanks again Martine (you are one very cool chick!)

Monday, May 23, 2005

I hate cleaning

It is a good thing that the trashman comes tomorrow because we are swimming in trash from Greg's son moving back in with us. I have been working on our bedroom since I got home from work. I have clothes thrown all over the room. I have got to find a new place for all my purses. I think I have my shoes under control.......but that is about the only thing!
At least my house does not look as bad as this woman's house
In one brief moment all I did was look into her eyes and all the fear and worry seemed to wash away. There was no anger, no pain, how could she be wrong. There was so much to be joyful about. In that one moment in time nothing else exist. My bestfriend, the only one who was with me during that painful time and now we would fight the world together side by side. She was the ultimate in perfection and my best friend for life. The first time I heldmy daughter I knew that she would bring the light into my life that I so deperatly needed.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

tell me I am not alone

Is anyone else having a problem with comments coming up as the people are unknown??? I know who some of these people are and I am not sure why this is happening. Please tell me I am not alone.

can you feel the love

I was trying to figure out what to eat for dinner tonight and said "Oh, that's right all I can have is chicken and salad and some real yummy broccoli." Greg is so sweet to me and replied "why don't you open a can of tuna and put the tuna "juice" on your chicken and have chicken of the sea."

Don't you just love him???

I am going to make my chicken minus the "tuna juice" of course!
I was tagged by nic

Three names you go by:

Three screen names you have had:

Three physical things you like about yourself:
my boobs
my hair (I have a love hate relationship with my hair)
my butt

Three things that scare you:
notbeing there for my daughter
being without my boyfriend
grasshoppers, frogs, crickets, etc...(anything that jumps)

Three things you're wearing now:
engagment ring
oversized sleep shirt

Three of your favorite bands or musical artist:
Conway Twitty

Three of your favorite songs:
truly madly deeply~Savage Garden
chain of love~Clay Walker
lightning strikes~Garth Brooks

Three things you want (need) in a relationship:

Two truths and a lie (which one is a lie?)
my sister is married to my daughters father
my boyfriend is 15 years older than I am
I met my boyfreind at a club I stripped at/he was a bouncer

Three physical things about the preferred sex do you love:
natural hair color (I hate when a guy tries to dye his hair)

Three of your favorite hobbies:
scrapbooking (I am learning)

Three things you want to do badly right now:
eat a steak
ride a roller coaster
take a long walk

Three careers you've considered:
medical billing
selling real estate
winning the lottery

Three places you want to go on vacation:
Cruise to anywhere
Somewhere with no kids

Three kids' names you like:

Three things you want to do before you die:

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl:
I love shoes
I love purses
I love jewelry

Three celebrity crushes:
Mel Gibson
James Gandolfini
Michael Chiklis

OK I am not good at this so I would like anyone who comes by to do this and let me know so I can come check out your. Please, Please do this for me!!!

Saturday, May 21, 2005

give me some room

This week has been crazy. Greg's son has moved back in with us. He is 16 and was living with his mother for almost a year. When he moved out we used his old room as storage and of course I was using his closet. Now my half of my clothes, purses, and shoes are homeless. I am glad he is back home but right now we can't walk through the house. The only place for me to sit is here at the computer.
We bought carpet for his room tonight so we will take care of that part and I am going to figure out how to sell some stuff on e-bay and I know that next weekend we will be at the flea market. What else can I do? This was sprung on us. We had no time to prepare his room for him. His mother kicked him out of her house. She is phyco! She called the cops on him and he was picked up for having cigarettes (a habit his mother allowed, but we do not!).

I have to go do some major cleaning (throwing away). I would take a picture of the way the house looks but I am to embarrassed to show anyone how cramped everything is. That boy has so much stuff.

Greg and I are trying to throw stuff away and his son just called and wants to buy furniture for his room.......where does he think it could go? He needs carpet in his room first. (BTW) he does not have carpet because when he was 15 he thought it would be cool to take up his carpet and have hardwood he wants carpet!!!


I went over to my mothers house today to help her set up her own blog. She found my site and thought it would be nice to have her own. I let her know that she may not like some of the things that I have written about her but I will not change anything in my post to make her happy. This is MY blog after all and I can't change or help the way I feel at certain times. I tend to get very emotional about the whole James topic and my parents (I promise you will understand this better in future James Part __ posts).
Anyways this is the first e-mail she sent to me~
Your diary makes for good reading. I am very impressed. If it were a book, it would definitely be at the top of my list. Good writing!
Very good! but......what did you mean......I'D PREFER IT IF MY FAMILY DIDN'T TALK TO ME! ??????? MOM

Last night I e-mail her to let her know that she might not like some of the things in my blog and that she may not want to read some of the things I have posted or will post. This is her response to that~

Don't worry about it..... Do you honestly think that I believe that you are always singing my praises? It's all a part of life....Get over it.....The past doesn't matter....It is where we are in the present. Believe me, I have been called a lot of things in my lifetime, and we have gone through some rocky times. If I read anything I don't like, I will just stop reading. Mom

I guess we shall see what happens. It may make for some interesting posts.
If anyone want to say hi to mom click here.

That's my brother for you

This is his response to all your wonderful comments~

Hey this is dawn's brother as I seem to be known as or Bill anyway's thanks for all the messages of support it is really appreciated and means a lot to me, and yes I know I have beautiful eyes and kissable lips lol I am told that all the time well thanks again
I am trying to talk him into getting his own blog but I am not sure how he feels about it yet. Thanks to everyone who posted a comment for my brother.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

If you love me.....

Please take a moment to put a comment in the post with my brothers picture below(scroll down till you see the handsome man in uniform). He is currently in Iraq and would love to see comments from other people. I sent him an e-mail today to let him know about my blog and that I posted his picture and have received some nice comments back. I am going to send him a copy of that post with your comments so please do me this favor.

When I told him his picture was posted he asked me if I needed anymore pictures......he is so conceited! He would love to hear from you all so please don't be shy.

This is my little brother Billy. He is in Iraq right now, but he is going to come home in June to visit (for 2 weeks I think). Posted by Hello


I know I said that I needed something to write about and I was debating on if I should post this or not but I have decided that I should sharethis.

It was about 10:00pm and I was on my way back home from the gym. I must of missed the accident by about a minute or two. I knew that something bad had happened because they completely closed off both sides of the road.I saw the article in the paper and it makes me sick to my stomach. It is hard for me to pass that road with out my stomach getting into a knot. The father was drunk and did not yield to traffic. His children should have been in a seatbelt and they would still be here. This is just careless! How could someone be so selfish. Why would the mother of these children get in the car with him knowing that he was drinking?!? The fault is on her also. What did these two adults let the children be in that car with no seatbelt...let's not even get into the fact that they should have been in a car seat.

Monday, May 16, 2005


I am going to keep this post at the top of my blog for a couple days so to check out new post please scroll down!

I have a request.......Can you please take a moment to sign up with the W.I.E. list. all you have to do is click in the little picture to the top right on your screen above the "about me" section......what this does is when you are logged onto my blog your name with your blog link will show up so other visitors can click onto your site and check out your blog also! This is a great way to meet new people. So do me this favor and check it out. Thanks for your time!

my life is sooo boring!

I have nothing to say! I could do another James post but I just don't feel like it. Maybe My life is not boring, maybe I am just to lazy to write a half way decent post. I should really be on my way out the door to do grocery shopping and make my daily gym trip that has not been so daily lately. Who took my motivation away? Please give it back!!!

Work was good today because my evil boss is on vacation all week. I should be eating dinner in an hour so I will go to the store now. Maybe something interesting will happen to me in the way there.

Sunday, May 15, 2005

look at what I found

I found the site information at lucky magazine for these wild looking shoes. I don't think I would buy them, but they are different and that makes them cool. The site where you can buy these or other things similar to it is here. Let me know what you think. Oh look at the picture of the shoes I am talking about below and then check out the site.

if you are looking for something different....... Posted by Hello

who needs a vacation now

Life can get pretty crazy at times and this couple knows how important a vacation can be. Found here.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Poor Jessica

I guess she wants sympathy from will not happen! My sister Jessica called yesterday to see if "they" could get Anna this weekend. They do not know the real reason why Anna is not going over there. As far as I am concerned there is no reason for me to let them know what I found. He knows what he did and maybe one day he will find out that I know....until then I will keep it to myself. I have learned to not lay all my card on the table when I comes to my family and to James.

Anyways, Jessica started crying that everyone hates her and it is not fair. She told me that she has been clean and does not smoke crack anymore (that is the first time she has ever said that to me). I told her I did not know what she wants from me. She was crying uncontrollably on the phone but she can turn her tears on and off like a faucet. Jessica told me that I have screwed everyone over in the family (whatever) and they still talk to me. I informed her that the only people that in need in this work live under my roof and I could care less if my family ever talked to me again (in fact I would prefer that).

So it all comes down to her saying this:

Poor Jessica~no one loves me
Poor Jessica~but I am clean now
Poor Jessica~I had a boyfriend who beat me up
Poor Jessica~I was locked up
Poor Jessica~I have to strip for money
Poor Jessica~I have to take care of a child that is not mine (Baby James)
Poor Jessica~had no where to live (what a lie)
Poor Jessica~Dawn has everything and I have nothing!
Poor Jessica~James make me strip and takes all my money
Poor Jessica~Dawn wants my man to pay child support for Anna (OMG! He is the father you know)

I could go on and on but why? I think you get the idea. I could argue every point Jessica made but I don't feel like it today. I will say that Jessica was homeless because that it how she wanted things. She had a place to live many times but she wanted her life and she got it. No sympathy here! I just don't care.

Friday, May 13, 2005

field trip today! Posted by Hello

field trip

I made it through the day. We went to an old school that teaches the students about science. They talked a lot about butterflies. On the way there we ran into traffic because a van caught on fire. That made the morning pretty rushed. The kids had fun and when we got back to the school we had a picnic outside. We had to get back to the school early enough for the school bus to pick up the high school kids.

I had 5 kids in my group. My daughter, 2 girls and 2 boys. I will only day that I would love to see how these kids will turn out when they are in high school.....I will leave my comment about the kids to just that!

I am on my way to the gym to workout. I may keep tonight's workout short.....maybe only a half hour.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

where did the week go?

I want to thank everyone who has stopped by to make my birthday happy! I will get by to see eveyone hopefully this weekend. Thanks again!

I knew this week was going to go by fast but not this fast. I met with Todd on Tuesday and I started my new eating plan today. Everything is going good so far. Tomorrow is Anna's school field trip.

Next week I will not have to put up with my ignorant boss because she will be on vacation. I plan on doing nothing this weekend but catching up on some blog reading and cleaning the house up. All I want is a peaceful weekend. I hope that is not to much to ask for.

Oh, scratch that...I forgot that this weekend it the open house at the gym so I will be spending all day Saturday with a bunch of screaming kids. Maybe Sunday will be quite.

Wish me luck with all the kids tomorrow. I am sure they will have a good time. We are going to the science center. I am sure I will have a story for you tomorrow.

Monday, May 09, 2005

It was a calm day

Work was ok. I have some haters there but there is nothing I can do about that. My boss made some ignorant comments to me but that just shows her true colors.

The first comment she made was when I told her another co-worker was going to treat me to lunch so I wanted to let her know what time I was going to go to lunch so she could plan hers. When I told her who I was going to lunch with she said "she is only going to lunch with you today because I told her I had other plans." even if that was the case (it was not) why would she say that?

The other comment was when she said "Dawn, There is no way you are are 29? 30??" First let me tell you that I look 25 or younger so I know that she is saying this to make me mad. It worked....I was hurt that she had to keep making remarks to try to upset me....this is MY day!!!

Some people will never grow up!

Other than her smart a$$ comments it was a good day.

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Happy Birthday To Me............... Posted by Hello

Happy Birthday To Me

I am not sure why I am so depressed. Maybe it is because I have to work on my birthday...maybe it is because I just realized I am getting older:(

I don't know. I always look forward to my birthday and then when it gets here I feel let down. I guess I will get over it...maybe....tomorrow.

I am sure that I will have a good day and there is so much going on this week. I have my meeting with Todd(my personal trainer)
on Tuesday, and on Friday I am going on my daughters school trip. The week should go by pretty quick.

For those of you who are curious I'm 27 today!!! That is REALLY close to 30. Me......almost 30??? How did that happen? Oh well, I guess I will enjoy 27 because it will only last 1 year!

Have a great day!!!

what does May 9th mean to me???

Your Birthdate: May 9
Your birth on the 9th day of the month adds a tone of idealism and humanitarianism to your nature.
You become one who can work easily with people because you are broadminded, tolerant and generous.
You are ever sensitive to others' needs and feelings, and you are very sympathetic and compassionate.

Your feeling run deep and you often find yourself in dramatically charged situations.
This 9 energy always tends to give more that it gets.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I have a new toy

My mother bought me a scrapbooking computer cd for my birthday (May 9th) and I have been spending most of the night playing around with it. We don't have the room for all the scrapbook scissors, glue, paper, glitter, pens, etc....the list could go on and on. My mother has a room dedicated to all of her "stuff" for scrapbooking and I just do not have the room or the money to do it. The computer program is a great alternative for right now. I am glad she got it for me and I am going to end this here so I can get back to my "work" so have a nice night...I will be back tomorrow.

Happy Mothers Day! Posted by Hello

Saturday, May 07, 2005

I am on a mission

A quiz mission that is..........I have posted quizzes I found already and now I am off to find more:) If anyone knows of any good quiz sites please share your info with me! Thanks.

what kind of drug are you?

You are Marijuana (aka: weed, dope, skunk,
chronic...). You are the most commonly used
drug in the world. You are powerful, stubborn,
moody, have a strong attitude. You are
classified as class (A and B) illegal drugs.

What kind of Drugs are you? and how that reflect your personality?
brought to you by

what color is your heart?

Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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which dysfunctinal care bear are you?

Tramp Bear
Tramp Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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what kind of kiss are you?

You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.

What kind of kiss are you?
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what kind of girl are you?

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by

what candy are you?

personality quiz

what color are you?


You enjoy life, humor, and being exuberant. Wherever you go you usually find yourself stealing the spotlight without even trying. You love to let go and have fun.

Find out your color at Quiz Me!

what pie are you?

Friday, May 06, 2005

whats the key to your heart?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

I am sooo great!

I spent today in the same office doing the same work that my old boss told me I was so bad at. On Thursday I was asked to help out my old office get caught up on some work.

I went into work today with a great attitude and it paid off. My ex-boss was so impressed with how much I got done in such a short amount of time. I guess she forgot how much I did(or never noticed) before. She asked me if I would like to come back to her office and work with them again. "No thanks" is what I told her. Later on she asked again if she could "share" me with my new boss. I am laughing so hard on the inside.

I got written up in December from her because she said I could not get along with anyone in our office and my work was not "good enough". Now she would love to have me.....part time.

This was the day I have been waiting for.....the day when she would see how much she really needs me!

This was the best day at work so far this year:)

BTW James and Jessica stopped by to see me at work today but I will write about that "fight" later...............

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

James Part 8

I remember going to the hotel to pick up my things that night. My mom's boyfriend who I had never met before drove me and my mom to get my belongings for the hotel room. James had no idea what was going on. My future step-dad was surprised to meet me because mom told him that "she had a daughter (me) but I died. (that's my mother for you!)

When I was in the room the phone rang and it was James. He said he knew something was wrong and he was sorry and he wanted to talk when he got back to the room. I told him it was to late and hung up the phone.

Dad and mom took me shopping that night for some maternity clothes. I had a lot of things running through my head at the time and I was not sure what was going to happen with school. I managed to talk them into leaving me at the same school because of all the stress from James and the move the school did not want to make things harder on me than they needed to.

I had a word processor that I played tetris on and when I opened it James has typed "I love you and our baby" so I could see it as soon as I turned it on. I cried so much that night. Why was he doing this to us???

I was still talking to James in that first two weeks back home and when mom found out she had my dad come over and take the phones out...and break the line so no phones could be hooked up. What is there was an emergency???? My parents are crazy! This is why I left home at 17 to begin with.

to be continued.............

Tuesday, May 03, 2005


Rebecca and I use to dance at the same club. I still talk to her from time to time. She moves around a lot. When we met she was living with her boyfriend in Virginia. Rebecca danced everywhere you could think of. She has been to Japan, California, Russia, Italy, Maine, New York,Baltimore, etc.. I love this girl but she will never grow up! She will never have anything, she can not be happy. I have known her for almost 8 years now and everytime I see her I worry more about her.

I saw her about 3 weeks ago before she caught her plane to New York and my daughter acts more grown up than she does. The "adult entertainment" life is not working well for her. I wish I could help her out but she is to busy with her "fast life" to slow down and see what it is doing to her.

It is so sad to see what she has turned her life into. Most of the time she goes out and does not remember what she has done. She will leave messages on my cell and you can tell she is f^$# up on something. I hate that she does this to herself but what can I do? We are not super close and we don't talk about her problem......only when she is in the hospital going through detox but that never last to long.

We always meet at a restaurant when she comes to see me because she is not welcome and can not be trusted in my home. I am very careful about who knows where I live. I try to keep my family life private from most people. There are only 3 people that I work with that know where I live and one installed our front door, another had to pick me up for work when my car was in the shop and the last one was a guy who saw me out front of my home one night when there was an accident in out front yard.

My last meeting with Rebecca has left me kind of blank.......I am not sure what to make of it. I am sure that she is getting high and she is running with nasty guys and acts like she could care less. I have not heard from her since the last time I saw her and I am sure I won't hear from her again for about 3 months. That is just her, she will pop in and out of my life. I will be here when she decides to call and I will be a friend....this is how our relationship is.

Monday, May 02, 2005

my day

My head is killing me right now. It just started to bother me. Greg and I went out to our favorite place for dinner tonight and the service and food was horrible. Oh well....we had a nice quiet dinner together and it was still very nice.

I have some cleaning to do..... so I will go for now. Have a nice night!

Sunday, May 01, 2005

for those who want to see a picture of me.....this is part of me! The shirt is from the motorcycle club! Posted by Hello

parade day

We had our parade today. It was a lot of fun. I have posted some pictures so you can see some of what we got to see. Anna had a lot of fun and we got to see a few people we had lost touch with. I took a ton of pictures...take a look at some of Anna's favorites and one I took for Greg because he did not go with will know which one was for Greg when you come to it.

there were lots of cheerleaders!!! I will spare you and not post them all. Posted by Hello

uncle sam wants you! Posted by Hello

these guys were awsome! They were doing figure eights and it was really cool! You should have seen it. Posted by Hello

this picture is for all the guys Posted by Hello