Sunday, February 27, 2005

pamper me

I have been relaxing all weekend. Greg has been taking care of me all weekend. I feel as pampered as I can feel after surgery. I have a week off of work to recover from having my tubes tied. I had the surgery done on Friday and I am already feeling better. I am taking 6 sick days off of work to "recover". I don not really need that much time but I have over 120 hrs. of sick time that I have never used and I think that I will start taking what is mine to take.

It has been a very peaceful weekend. I plan on having a nice quiet week with Greg while Anna is in school. I just pray that there will not be any snow so Anna will not miss any school this week.

I have been reading a book that a friend of mine gave me almost 3 years ago to read. It is a book by Iceberg Slim and the title of the book is PIMP. It is an interesting book but I have not had a chance to read it. I will finish it before I return to work next week.

I am going to go check some e-mail and write back tomorrow. I have to do some more reading before bed time.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

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Saturday, February 12, 2005

weekend fun?

Well I am sitting here taking a break from cleaning house. I was off of work yesterday and I spent the whole day cleaning Anna's room. I found candy wrappers, sugar packet's, and homework and classwork from school that has not been completed.

Lets just say that Anna is grounded for quite sometime. She will be home all weekend completing all her unfinished school work.

I am doing my "spring cleaning". I have thrown out 2 bags of trash from Anna's room. I am working on the kitchen right now. I also want to clean out the car and get rid of a bunch of my Avon stuff. Greg is planning on setting up at the flea market this spring. We have so much we need to get rid of.

I am waiting to see if my mom will get Anna out of my hair for awhile so I can clean without worrying about what she is doing.

I have a lot to do so I guess I should get off the computer and get to it.......Talk to ya later.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Yesterday was good and today will be even better

I went into work with the best attitude. I smiled at everyone when I walked in the door and said hi to all the people who bug in my office. I was only in the office for a few min. and I asked my boss about my schd. and that is when I heard the news that they have found a new position for me with our credit coordinator. I will still have to work nights and weekends but at least I will be away from the trouble makers (as much as I can be). We all have to work together but it will not be as bad as it was. It will be another good position to put on my resume.

I was going to start at the end of the month after my surgery but they want me to start on Monday. My department manager talked it over with our "store manager" and he said that it is OK to move me right away.....Today is my last day in the office!!! I am so happy:-) Can't you just see me dancing around the floor?

After that little piece of info yesterday I found out that our store manager id getting moved to the same store that he put Steve in when he demoted him. So now Steve was under our store manager. Steve did not do his job and Lauren (our store manager) made him move on to a bad store. It was a step down for Steve and it is a step down for any manager. Some people might say that it is a move because they are so good and they will clean that store up but trust me when I tell you that they have there as punishment. I think it is funny that Lauren is going to be in the same store as Steve! HAHAHAHA! Talk about justice!

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

I will be happy today

I go into work today at noon and I will be happy today no matter what! All this stress from work is making me look old and I have been looking at some recently taken pictures of myself and I can see the toll that all of this stress is taking on me.

I will smile today and make the best of my situation. After work I will go to the gym and release any anger there. I refuse to let work turn me into something I so not want to be. I can not change the way things are there so why do I let it bother me so much? NOT TODAY! I am starting over and I will feel so much better.

I will write back tonight to see if these thoughts are still with me:-)

Sunday, February 06, 2005


Milkshake by Kelis
"My milkshake brings all the boys to the yardAnd they're like, it's better than yoursDamn right it's better than yoursI could teach youBut I have to charge"
You can work it! And you started a new trend or two in 2004!

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

WOW! I love this song. One of my girlfriend's had this song ring on her phone when ever I called her. I will leave you now with that thought. I am going to go shake my thing for my man now:)

Friday, February 04, 2005

I need sleep......

I am sitting on the computer trying to keep myself awake so I do not go to bed to early.

I want to tell you a little bit about my family. My parents separated when I was 12 after many years of making us kids crazy with all of the fighting. My dad was in the military and he had a few different side jobs to bring in extra money and mostly to have an excuse to leave the house so he could sleep around with slut he could find.

I have a half sister from my dad. Her name is Tammy and she is 8 years older than I am. I have only met her a few times. I don't see my dad's side of the family much. She looks nothing like the rest of my dad's kids. He had her with his first marriage and when her mom died she moved in with her aunt on her mothers side. Dad has never been around for his own kids. He was more of a father to my step-brother than he ever was to any of his "real" children.

I have a brother who is in Iraq right now. Billy will be 25 in March. We don't talk much he did call me once at 3am because he was "bored". He never bothered to call me or even e-mail me when he was still here. I guess no one else was up to talk to him. I keep updated on him from mom.

The twins are 20. Jessica and Paul. Paul lives with dad and is still in high school. I am not sure what grade he is in and if I must tell the truth I do not care. He should be out of school by now.

My sister and I have a crazy history and I will go into that deeper on another day. I will give a little bit of her background. At one time I had guardianship over her because our parents wanted nothing to do with her. Jessica spent some time in jail for robbery and I use to visit her and accept all her calls, send her money and listen to her play the pity me roll. I even went to court to help her get out of jail sooner. After all I felt sorry for her we both came from the same fucked up parents. Jessica is one that will just disappear one day and you just have to wait to see when she will pop up again and then you know that she is still alive. For a very short time Jessica had a real address, she was living with some friends that she grew up with. I decided one day to just show up so Anna could visit with her Aunt Jessica and her girlfriend let me in on Jessica's secret.......Jessica moved in with Anna's father. YES! My sister was living with my daughters father. I called her on the cell that he had bought her and left a message to let her know that her secret was out and she has never called me back. I don't care because he is a major loser anyway. I just can not believe that she would be with someone who has put me through so much crap. (I will get into all of that later)

So that is just a little look into my family members. I do not talk to any of them much. I feel better when I stay away from them. I drink a lot less when they are away.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

kids can be so mean

When Anna came home from school yesterday she was a little upset about some things that the kids were saying about her not having a dad. This really bothers her because she does have a dad. He may not be her "father" but he is her DAD! He had been there for her for over 5 years now and belive me when I tell you it has been a bumpy ride.

It was funny tough because while I was Checking my e-mail last night Anna asked me when she should have a baby(she is only 8). I asked her what she thought and this is what she told me. She wants to wait until she has money, is out of school, has a good job, and a husband. She also said that she does not want a husband who already had a kid. WOW! Kids are amazing and she never ceases to amaze me. Sometimes kids are to honest. When she realized what she said and that Greg stepped in and is her DAD and he did not have to do that it really made her think. Anna's "father" wants nothing to do with her and that is fine with her. He is living happily ever after with my sister and now I do not have to deal with him or her. They were both bad for us anyway. My sister is nothing but trouble and so was he.

I have to go right now. When I get back I will start to explain the whole crazy family story.