Saturday, April 30, 2005

my new weight loss plan

I am going to meet with Todd for some help to make me look like my beautiful self again. I have 30lbs to lose and he is going to get a plan together to help me reach my goals. I can't wait. I have an appointment to meet with him Tuesday May 10th (the day after my birthday(May 9th)). So this will be my birthday gift to myself.

I will let you know how our meeting goes. This week will be my "pig out" week because I know I will have to get with the "program" after I meet with him. I am excited and can't wait! It will be a lot of work but I know I can do it.

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Friday, April 29, 2005

my friday

There were a few interesting things that had happened to day but this take place of all the small things that happened today.

I was standing at the computer to input some payments into our system and I had a perfect view of our plywood/sheetrock aisle I could see the guys trying to pull some plywood down from the top shelf and then I heard "watch out" from one of our lumber guys. I looked up just in time to see the sprinkler bust. I looked at the other guys at the desk with me(they had no idea what was going on) and told them they better come take a look. I tried to get a manager but of course no one answered the phone. We finally got in touch with them and the fire alarm went off.

The water from the broken sprinkler was spraying real good into the aisles. We had to have the fire department come out to turn the sprinkler off. It took them about 40 minutes to turn it off. There were 5 aisles that ended up with water damage to the products...all the wood, concrete, insulation, plywood, sheetrock, Styrofoam boards, etc....

The really sad part about it is that the guy who did it is a really good guy. He has NEVER had an accident like this before. I hope they don't make things to hard on him. We thought that they were going to close our store down but I made it through my shift but they were still in clean up mode when I was leaving for the day.

If you could have seen the water in all 5 aisles you would have been speechless. We all had to laugh because we needed to try to lighten the situation for everyone. I don't even want to think about how much money we have lost due to this.

Anyways, that was the highlight of my day.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

where to find....

This post is for anyone who wanted to know where to find the top from my second to last post. If you go here you can find a lot of really cute tops, shoes, pants, and really nice "stripper" outfits. Look around the site and let me know what you think.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

it is about time

My car is finally in the shop. I left work to come home for lunch and I was going to stop to see my mechanic so he could put my car on the computer to scan it. Greg told me that he talked to the mechanic about my car earlier this week and he can not do anything if my check engine light is not on. My check engine light goes on and off about as much as my car dies on me(a lot!).

I called Greg to have him make me lunch so I could get my car check out and still be able to eat lunch. As soon as I hung up my cell phone from talking to him my check engine light went off, so I just went home.

When lunch was over I got in my car to head back to work and it died on me right after I left our driveway. I drifted to the next street and called Greg. I said "go to the door and look to your right" he knew what I was trying to say and came outside to "rescue me". As soon as he got in the car he started it right up(I knew that was going to happen). He started to walk away and I told him I drive the distance of the two homes between my junk car and the house to take him back home. He declined my very sweet offer and started to walk back home.

I backed up out of the side street to get back on the main road and the stupid car died again! I honked the horn to get his attention and he walked back to me so we could take my car to the shop(finally).

The funniest part about this whole thing is that another girl I work with had a neon like I do and she was on her way back to work after lunch and her car died and she had to walk back to work.....I know it is not funny but after the day I had it felt good to know I was not alone.

I have talked to the mechanic and he is going to replace the map sensor...I should have my car back by Friday. I hope!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

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I want to buy this shirt! I just love it don't you?

Monday, April 25, 2005

money tree

I feel like a money tree. This week is just horrible and everytime I turn around Anna needs more money. She is getting enrolled in swim classes($50), cheerleading($185), school picturs($40), summer clothes($250), field trip($12), money to take on the field trip($20). All this needs to be done in the next two weeks. In the meantime who knows what might happen to my car.

I am going to go take a look at my bank account books and cry now!

Sunday, April 24, 2005

whats your taste in music?

Your Taste in Music:

90's Hip Hop: Highest Influence
90's Pop: Highest Influence
90's R&B: Highest Influence
90's Rock: Highest Influence
Old School Hip Hop: Highest Influence
R&B: Highest Influence
90's Alternative: High Influence
Adult Alternative: High Influence
Country: High Influence
Gangsta Rap: High Influence
Hip Hop: High Influence
80's R&B: Medium Influence
Heavy Metal: Medium Influence
80's Pop: Low Influence
80's Rock: Low Influence
Classic Rock: Low Influence
Hair Bands: Low Influence
Ska: Low Influence

99 things

stolen from here


01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don’t watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping even though I barely sleep
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I’ve tried marijuana
09. I’ve watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I’ve been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me sometimes
20. I’m really, really smart
21. I’ve never broken someone’s bones
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I’m paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot~when she was blond and before she was married
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I’m popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal
58. I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I’m a pretty good dancer
60. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I’ve rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone.
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I’ve called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I’m not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube’s newest “Friday” movie
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I’m online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past
85. I own the “South Park” movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played “the birds and the bees” with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friend
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick’s “Children’s Story”
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it
98. I have dated a close friend’s ex
99. I have cut my self before

I do not believe

I just want to say that I have no faith in the court or the cops. I can explain all of this in a later post. If I tried to explain it now you would be really confused. I will say that I have been to court over Anna in two very draining cases. I can not explain how much these cases have hurt my family.

I took Anna from James this weekend and I am not sure if we will have a court battle or not. I blame everything that has happened on mom and dad and James. More my family then anything else(James is to stupid to do this on his own). There is a major wedge between us!

I still talk to my parents on a must talk to basis only. I can't cut all ties with them yet and trust me there is a reason(they are all psycho!). As I go through all of my James stories and bring you up to speed I will explain all the court battles.

Saturday, April 23, 2005

I can totally sympathize

My car is acting crazy! It goes when it want to and stop when it wants to stop. Sometimes it will go and stop in the middle of moving....the car will shut off and not start back up for a few minutes and then it starts right back up and acts like nothing ever happened. Nobody can figure out what the problem is.

I saw
this and I can totally sympathize with him.


Anna is home now safe and sound. I will post later. Thanks for the support!

Friday, April 22, 2005

I knew he was a sick f$@#........

Ok I am really sick to my stomach. I am totally freaking out right now! I went to Tammy's and found this here

I have been to that site before and have tried to look a few people up including Anna's father. I think the last time Greg and I were on the site was in February. I checked a few names like always and they came up nothing as always except for when I found this

Needless to say I am very sick. Anna is with him this weekend and I can not get in touch with him. What is even worse is that the court had to of known about this last month when we were is court over Anna. I HATE THE COURT SYSTEM!!!! WHAT A SICK FUCK HE IS!!!!

He was charged with the offense aginst a 15 year old or younger child. When we were together he was messing with a 15 year old but I know this could not be the one he is charged with.

I can not even explain how I feel right now and how I felt when a picture actually came up ont he screen. I am posting his picture because I want people to beware of this sick mother fucker!

and another quiz....

You scored as Dirty Piercings. AH!!! You dirty person you! Put that away!!! Who did that for you!? Your the kinkiest of the kinkiest and probably think you're hot stuff. Well, maybe you are but that's kinda nasty. Ew. Weirdo.

Dirty Piercings


Belly Button Piercing


Tongue Piercing


Cartilage Piercing


Labret Piercing




Earlobe Piercing


Nose Piercing


Lip Piercing


What Piercing Are You?
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

once a thief...always a thief

My sister Jessica came by to see me at work today to let me know that her and James were still going to pick Anna up today for the weekend(she has off tomorrow for spring break). I walked outside with Jessica because James wanted to show me the sandals he "bought" for Anna.

Anna is 8 years old. I am sure all the mom's and some dad's who read this will understand what I am going to talk about. Anna's shoe size is 13. James "bought" Anna the little girl size 7. For those of you who don't know.....size 7 is a size a 2 year ols would wear.

James asked me if I would take it back to the shoe store to get a refund. I said "Sure! No problem...where is the box? Receipt? bag???" He did not have any of the three things I just mentioned. I guess they must have blown out the window.

See, he will never change. I did not take the shoes. He can do this all on his own. That is my drama for the day....what do ya think? Crazy hu?

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

a little about me

found here
So have you ever...

(x ) snuck out of the house - Of course!
(x) gotten lost in your city - I always find my way back home:)
( ) saw a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states - Germany
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas - Sure, my night clothes are comfortable.
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight - what can I say? Things happen.
(x) been arrested-long story(for another time)
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose - I don't drink milk
( ) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) swore at your parents - they asked for it.....
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino - and lost...never won..yet!
( ) been skydiving
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school - too many times to count
( ) seen a therapist -
(x) done the splits - when I was much younger
( ) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches - After I had my daughter
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone - not to hurt them........
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox - I was a baby
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped - I am sure that I have I just can't remember who it may have been.
(x) shoplifted - When I was in middle school and trust me I learned my lesson
(x) been fired -
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back -
(x) gone on a blind date - the guy ate fish before we went out...and wanted to know why I would not kiss him EWWW
( ) lied to a friend -
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated Mardi-Gras in new orleans
(x) been to Europe - Germany
(x) slept with a co-worker - no comment!
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
(x) had children - and never will
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
(x) Driven over 400 miles in one day - many times in the past
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show -
(x) Thrown up in a bar - you don't need to know how many times I hope.
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi - one of my favorite foods!
( ) Been skiing/snowboarding - and never intend to
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college -
( ) graduated college
(x) fired a gun - with my dad when I was younger
( ) purposely hurt yourself -
(x) taken painkillers

If you decide to take part let me know and I'll come have a read!

the award goes to....

I want to thank everyone who answered my plea for help about my link dilemma. A special thanks and the award of cool chick for the day goes to maggie.

I did it....I am soooo smart!

Tuesday, April 19, 2005


Drinking and blogging should be against the law!

I have such a fat A$$. Has is always been this big?
Does it get bigger when you drink?
Why does it move so funny?
Am I ok?
I can't type when I why do I try?

I think I will try to find some fun things online for you.
Please see the post below and tell me how to work the link.....I have tried but I think it hates me like my car hates me:)

See I can drink tonight because my car won't go anywhere anyways:)

If I could get child support every week I could buy a new car.......That will NEVER happen.

Note to self: Tell Anna to have a baby with a guy who has a job!

Help me!!!!

I need to figure out to put a link onto my post!!!! Help me!!!! Why won't it work for me?!?!?! Who can help me:)

Monday, April 18, 2005

kids say the darndest things

Anna asked me if she can get an MRI done because she wants to see how much her brain has grown. She has been having problems in class this year. She told me that Greg has been giving her "brain juice" at night before she goes to sleep to make her brain get bigger.

I guess that is why she has been coming home with better reports from her teacher and she is doing more of her work at school. If I knew that was all we needed it would have saved me from fighting with her over her homework an incomplete classwork.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

she is a better woman than I am

I found this article about a couple that decided that giving a ring would not be a true indication of how they really feel for each other.

"You can take a ring off your ring finger, but you can never put your ring finger back on once you take it off. It’s something that will last forever — it’s a physical testament to how much I actually do love him."

If you would like to see pictures and read more about their "commitment" to each other go to

I must really be bored:)

I am not sure when I will be able to complete this but.....I am going to go through everyone on my link list and make sure that I have read from the beginning to now on your blog. I am sure that everyone has some interesting stories that I have not had a chance to read about so this is my new adventure. It will take me sometime to do but....I did not make my library run this weekend so I will read up on all of you:)

Saturday, April 16, 2005

weekends are great

I enjoy just sitting around the house and watching TV or sitting at the computer. I love it best when I do nothing with my weekend. I am having a very uneventful weekend and I love it. I was planning on a having a nice weekend with just me and Greg. Anna was not picked up this weekend by James so we are all just sitting around watching TV and talking.

Anna is learning about dinosaurs and will not stop talking about them. It is good that she is so interested in something at school.

I think I will go back to our family time. Have a good weekend everyone!

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look who's mad now

I tried to call my sister this week a few times to see what time they would pick Anna up for the weekend........I got no call back. They never called or came to pick Anna up. I called child support to see what happened in court on Monday with my case and I was told that there is another check that will be cut next week for &700.00! I am so happy....I just got the other check for $650.00 yesterday. This could not be happening at a better time because of all the problems with my car.

I would take a good guess and say that James was locked up this week and that is why they are mad.....I don't care! He needs to take care of Anna too. He is even trying to get Anna on his side. She told me last week that I should drop the child support order on him so he can get his license. He has NEVER had a license. This is why it is sooo hard to get him to pay....he can live with nothing and it will not bother him.

I will know more about this new payment in the middle of the week. Things are starting to look up for me a little bit. I just hope my car will make it to the gym and back today:)

Friday, April 15, 2005

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Thursday, April 14, 2005

James Part 7

I have not posted a James story in a few weeks so I thought I would do this tonight.

During the summer I went back to my high school to see if I could finish school and not have to get my GED. I was told that I needed to go to summer school and not miss one day for any reason. I needed to make up for some credits I missed when I left home in April.

James paid for me to go to summer school and I took a cab to school and from school on most days. About three weeks into summer school we moved back to the motel. I did not finish summer school because I ended up in the hospital with a kidney infection.

I talked to my school counselor and was able to start school in September. I was very happy...I needed to be as normal as I could me. We were still living in the he motel. We had a nice room it was on the upper floor and we had a balcony and a table to eat at. It was nicer then some of the other rooms we had stayed in.

James paid another guy living in the same motel as we did to take me back and forth to school each day. I think it was $40 a day for me to go to school. James did help me and stand by me while I went to school. He made sure I had everything I needed and plenty of money for breakfast and lunch....Anna and I ate so good in those days:)

It amazed me how well the kids is school acted towards a young teen mom. I thought I would be treated like an outcast but I was wrong. Most people did not notice I was pregnant until my 7 or 8th month. I remember one of the girls walked up to me and asked me if I was pregnant because she could tell by the way I got out of my seat....I walked like but butt hurt(and it did) school chairs and not nice to a pregnant booty. She had a baby when she was 15 so she could tell.

I joined a club/meeting with other girls who were pregnant or already had a baby. These girls were wonderful and had their head screwed on tighter than some older mom's that I have met. These girls made bad choices but were willing to take care of their child and not push the responbsibility off on their mom and dad.

It did sicken me at times when girls would walk up to me at lunch and make a comment like"I wish I was having a baby" I would say "why, so your mom and dad can raise it?" I guess I thought I was better because I was an "adult" and going to school and I was going to make a great mom.

James would sleep all day while I was a school and go out with his stealing buddy at night. I would stay in out room and study and do homework. James was coming home later and later each night. I could tell he was still getting high and we fought all the time.

James had got locked up one day while he was out trying to make us money and when I got home from school I could hear noises coming from our room.....his stealing buddy was getting his freak on in our room while James was locked up. I was angry at James but not his friend...I knew his buddy was a dog...I was not his wife why should I care! When his buddy took his "friends" (yes 2 of them) back to their corner to buy drugs we left to get James.

James freaked out one day when some girl came knocking on our door looking for someone not in our room.....we moved into another room because he was paranoid.

Our new room was sooo small. I hated it. I woke up one night and James was not home and I saw a mouse(I did not know they climbed stairs). I was so upset and I left the room and sat on the steps outside until James would come back to the room.

There was only one way to the upstairs so he would have to pass me. There was another set of steps but that door was always locked....NEVER EVER opened. I waited outside for an hour and then James showed up...Behind could that happen? James told me that he came in from the other steps. He told me that it was open.

The trust between us was fading.

He told me later that he was in his friend(dave's) room getting high with Dave and his girlfriend. We got into a fight like always...but I stayed with him.

There was one morning that my school ride did not show up(he picked up some strippers and got high)he forgot about me. I went back into the room to get some sleep and take the day off from school. There was a knock on the door.....I answered it....James was asleep....the girl said "I'm sorry I am at the wrong room." We were the last room in the could you mess that up?!?!? I threw my books at James to make him wake up....I saw her wearing one of his shirts(just for the record she was ugly). He swore he did not know what I was talking about.

I left to go to school....I talked with my counselor and we called mom at work. Mom came to the school and picked me up....later on that night I went to the motel room to get my things. I left James........for now.........

to be continued.......

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

I can almost taste victory

Going to the governor really paid off! I went online to check on my child support case and I got the $650.00 that the state said that they were going to hold for 99 days(the end of May). I have not heard from the governor or his office but they are doing something and $650.00 will keep me quiet for a day or two.

I can really use this money because I am pretty sure I will have a new car before my birthday in May.

I am going to go now and enjoy me victory!

he is out to get me....

We decided to take my "death trap" car out to the store last night and before we left to go to the store we were goofing around(me, Anna and Greg). I won't get into tooo much detail but....we had the trunk open and Greg went to shut it and my eye and shoulder got in the way. By the time we got to the store a mile away I could feel the knot above my eye. I had a mouse above my eye!

Greg was laughing at me because I was freaking out....I had work today what were people going to think. Greg was laughing because he said the look on my face was is not really bad today. The knot went down and nobody could even tell what had happened to me unless I pointed it out.

Why do these thing always happen to me?!?

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

pet peeves

I hate when I see people walk into a non-animal store with their pets.....I really hate that our managers are to scared to say something to them about it. I want to buy a pit bull and bring it to work with me so it can eat your dog.........I am sorry if I offend but dogs and cats SHOULD NOT EVER be in a non-animal store shopping with you! I have seen owners bring in dogs unleashed and running wild on the floor. I have also seen dogs take a "potty break" in the aisle. Do these people know that there are people who are deathly allergic to cats/dogs?

Next pet peeve is when someone pee's on the toilet seat and will not clean up after themselves. A girl I work with claims that she is soooo clean and carries spay around with her and makes fun of people who do not wash their hands (that is gross). This is also the lady who was in the bathroom stall and I said "Oh I will go in after you because I know you are clean". I was sooo wrong! She pee's on the toilet seat and does not clean up after herself....that is sooo nasty! It reminds me of when I was dancing and the "nasty(I will do anything for a buck)girls" would not sit on the toilet seat because of germs, but......these same girls would fuck a guy at the bar for less than $20. Don't tell me about germs when you are doing that! Take a look at yourself are nasty. There are seat covers and toilet paper...please use that...that is why they are put there.

Ok, who have a made mad tonight? I just had to get that off my chest. Thanks for taking the time to listen to my whine.

Monday, April 11, 2005

going to the top dogs

I have had enough with shit with child support! I am ready to snap at any moment. Why won't they do anything about my case? He never pays until he goes to court. They schedule his court dates 3 to 4 months apart and then only make him pay $300-$400 when he shows up to court. His order is to pay $91 per week with an additional amount of $9 for back child that brings his grand total to $100 per week.

Question....How can the court wait 4 months for a court date and then only ask him to pay $300 in child support? There is something wrong here! He waits 4 months for court and does not even have to pay one full month when he gets to court. He is now over $7,400 behind.

I sent an e-mail to the governor to see if he will do anything about it because child support and the court system do not seem to care.......what do I have to lose? I will let you know if I hear back from the top dogs.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

I will not be destroyed

I am really having a hard time trying to get the weight off that I gained when I started working at Lowes 4 years ago. I have always been small with a good figure for my weight. Before I had Anna I was 97lbs. I only gained 20lbs with her and lost it all within one month. I started working at the club(stripping) when she was 6 months old and the most I weighed was 115.

Once I stopped dancing and when I got the job I have now the weight slowly crept on. I am now at 142lbs and very unhappy. My main problem is that I do not feel comfortable in clothes that are not baggy.....the bigger the clothes are the better I feel.

There have been a few things that have happened at work that makes me play down my looks so guys will not get the wrong idea. When I started my job 4 years ago I use to take my break outside so I could call my boyfriend on my cell phone. One day this guy walked up to me and and pointed at my name tag and rubbed his finger along the bottom of my breast. I freaked out...I got his tag number and went back into work and called the cops.

The next problem I had was with a regular customer who asked me out on a date. I told him "no" but he called me a tease because I smile and look in his eyes when we talked. He also told me that I dressed to sexy...???.... All I use to wear was jeans and a t-shirt.....I could not help it that I had a nice figure.....

The worst one that happened was the day one of our salesmen came into the store on his day off(with a lost dog he found) and he walked into our office in the our the store. I worked in an office with 3 other ladies and we had a bunch of file cabinets. I was standing in a bent over position so I could get into the bottom file cabinet when he decided that he wanted to squeeze past me. There were 2 other people in the office at the time and both people were on the phone and not paying attention at the time. He rubbed his nasty self against my a$$ and said "Oh god, that felt soooo good". I freaked...I don't remember everything because it all got fuzzy...all I could see was red! I remember that I snapped at him about having a nasty dog in a place of business and I walked out of the office. I found a co-worker to tell her what happened. We talked in the bathroom and then I decided to take it to management.

I had to write out a report about what happened. They talked to him to see what his side of the story was but of course he denied it. Did I mention that he is a drunk? After management spoke to him I was informed that I could me moved to another part of the store if I felt uncomfortable working with him. Our job is linked together so there was no way for me to avoid him at work.

Why should I have to be the one to move? He is the drunk in the store.....he drive heavy equipment while he is drinking on the job....this is no secret, everyone knows he is a drunk....they knew he was fired from his last job for drinking!

I stayed in my position at work and did not move. He left work for a few months to "clean himself up" He still work with me. I don't see him much now because I did change positions at work(not for that reason).

Anyways, I just have worked so hard to be noticed that I now hate what I have done to myself. I need to get over my fear with these guys and if they can't look but not touch or if they have a problem because I like to smile, listen to them talk to me and look in their eyes then that is their problem not mine!

Most people say that you can't trust someone who will not look in your eyes. I will not look anyone in their eyes because they all seem to take things the wrong way. I will not let them win! This is why I am trying to lose this weight.....for myself! I will loose 25lbs....wish me luck.

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Saturday, April 09, 2005

I am trying to kill myself today

I went to my girlfriends party lite party. I got suckered into having a party in 2 weeks. The girl who sells is an ex-coworker and she is now a teacher at my daughters could I say no? Anyways, I am having the party at someone else's home so I don't even have to worry about cleaning before people come over.

I wore my "hooker boots" but they really do look nice with a good pair of jeans. I was sitting on the steps in her house at the party and I was sitting kind of awkward so I would not destroy her carpet with my heels and I think I bruised the top of my ankle. If I did any damage to myself I will know tomorrow morning.

I think I will get into my broken down car that hates me sooo much and go to taco bell for dinner and maybe stop to get some vodka for a warm drink tonight.........

my "hooker boots" Posted by Hello

I think I killed myself this morning

I got up at 6:30 to make it to my very first spinning class(maybe my last). It was for a very good cause and I did have fun. We got an hour break and then I took my usual cardio class. I know I burned some serious calories today. It is a good thing because I have another home party to attend this afternoon....and we all know about all the food that is served at home parties...that is the best part!

I am very proud of myself for working out so hard. I think I will relax tomorrow and not do to much. I really should clean the house up before I got back to work Monday. Maybe I will get off the computer now...maybe I won't...........

Friday, April 08, 2005

let me clear something up ....

I tried to write this through blogger yesterday but it would not post so I will try again.

Just as an FYI I would like to explain the relationship between me and my sister. Oh, and I would also like to say that I have nothing against strippers....I use to dance/strip a few years ago.

My sister looks really bad and life is taking a bad turn for her. I do not feel bad for her because she has made the choice to do this to herself. I have tried to point her in the right direction but she has a mind of her own and makes bad choices. I will not keep pulling her out of the shit she gets herself into. I just can't do it anymore. The following are the reasons why I have bad feeling towards her.

1. Jessica is a thief. She stole Anna's money from her before she was even born. I was in the hospital giving birth to Anna and I come home to find that she stole Anna's piggy bank. I had about $50.00 in it for her at the time. I came home to find a few pennys.

2. Jessica stole rent money from my $250.00 safe. She broke into the safe while I was at work and stole the money when she was babysitting for me.

3. Mom was suppose to watch Anna for me while I was working at the club. I got a call from Jessica and she was crying. The police were going to pick her up at a store she got caught stealing at and they were going to take Anna away(mom let Jessica take Anna shopping(lifting) with her). I had to get in touch with a cop friend and ask him if he could get Anna for me because it would have taken me to long to pick Anna up.

4. I use to take care of all Jessica's needs while she was locked up for trying to rob a little old lady.

5. I had to find out from Jessicas friend that she was dating Anna's father. James was with his son's mother at the time him and Jessica got together. I just can't believe I did not hear it from her and that she did not even try to get in touch with me for over a year. I am the one who got in touch with her.

6. Jessica got both my dad and my stepdad in trouble because she said they both abused her at different times.

7. I had custody of Jessica at one time so she could go to school and have a place to live.

8. Jessica decided it would be nicer to live in an abandoned car then have to live in a house that had rules.(she was 17 at the time)

9. In the picture below she is 19. She has had a rough life. I feel no sympathy for her because she chose this life for herself and she wants no help to get out of it.

These are just some of the things we have been through together.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

from left baby, baby's mom(Jessica's best friend, and the crack head on the right is my sister. Look at her teeth and she is too thin. It looks like she is dying. She is a stripper....would you pay to see that? She might do better on the street corner(in the dark light). Posted by HelloClick on the picture so you can see her face better......SHE IS NASTY!!!!! I am sooo mean....heehee.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

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Monday, April 04, 2005

busy days are ahead

I am going to take my before summer picture tonight.....and I can tell you that I will have alot of work to do before summer gets here. My surgery put my way off track. I have a spinning marathon on Saturday and this will be my first time ever spinning. It is for a good cause, we are spinning for breast cancer awareness. We will do that for an hour and then we will rest and then take out 45 minute clubbin' cardio class. I should burn some calories this weekend!!

I will have a good day at work tomorrow because my direct boss will be out with minor surgery for the day. I am sooo glad she will be gone because she really plucks my nerves.

I have to end this here because I have about 200 crunches to do before bedtime. I will fall asleep tonight with thin thoughts running through my head.

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Slap my sister

Can you all help me out by slapping my ho sister? Go to and help me slap some sense into my sister. Thanks for your time!

Saturday, April 02, 2005

girlfriend can not drive

This girl does not help the "woman don't know how to drive" saying.

I had just laid my head on the pillow last night around 11 to go to sleep after taking 2 tylenol pm pills when I heard my boyfriends son(16) walk into the house. He lives with his mother about 45 min. away and he and his mom have been fighting so he was at our house for a few days.

I though I heard him say that there was a car on the train tracks, but I was half asleep by this time. I heard the door open and then Greg yelled into the house for me to get up and call 911 to make the train stop. I jumped out of bed and grabbed the phone and called 911 and when I looked out the window I got scared. The girl that was driving my boyfriends son was on the train tracks.....she went off the road and was in the direction the train would come. In order to get to our house she had to make a left, go OVER the tracks and them AFTER you cross the tracks you make an immediate left and our house is right there. His girlfriend has never been in this neighborhood and made her left tooooo soon.

Greg's son left her in the car while he got his dad. I guess she was in shock. Greg got her out of the car before our local train came through. The trains around here come by every 15 min. Luckily the train stops after 11pm but they still go back and forth moving the train from one station to another. Just as I walked outside I could see Greg trying to get the train to stop before hitting this girls car. My heart was in my throat. The train goes as fast as 60 mph in this neighborhood. Greg did manage to get the train to stop in time and now all we had to do was get her car out of the tracks......not easy at all.

Where her car stopped at was on top of one track. The track is one foot above the ground. We tried to push the car out and Greg got some boards from our yard to try to lift the car over the track but it would not work.

One of my nosy neighbors came out of his house to harass the girl...asking her questions like is she high or is she drunk. He also said "How stupid could you be little girl?" "How could you end up on the tracks?"

I know she was not to smart for getting herself into this but why couldn't he just leave her alone. I know she felt so bad and so stupid for doing this. She could have got herself killed and she knew it...she did not need his help.

The police came and asked her a bunch of questions and she could not find her drivers license. We were still trying to get her car out and it started pouring down raining. Finally a guy who lives down the street was on his way home and he has his own tow truck so he helped a neighbor out for $40. It only took him 5 minute tops to pull it up and off the track. He will be sorry in the future for not helping us out and doing it for free but that is a story for another time.

After the car was pulled off the tracks the rain stopped and we all went into the house to dry off and go to bed. That is what my Friday night was like. How about yours?

Friday, April 01, 2005

I need your help

I sell Avon and I have a website that I pay almost $20 a month for. I have given my site information to friends and family who buy off the computer but I have been told that the site is confusing and hard to navigate around. If you could take a few minutes to look around my site and tell me if you have any problems or if you think the site is to confusing. I am not sure if it is worth keeping or not.

I am not asking anyone to buy from my site(if you do I would not have a problem with that). I just need to know what your opinion is and if you find it too difficult to move around the site. Thank you for your time in helping me out with this. I greatly appreciate it. My site is

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