Tuesday, January 31, 2006


I know that I said that I was in love with the shoes I bought yesterday online but.....I went the mall and guess what I found????

Give up? I found the boots (I LOVE boots) that I have been lookin' at since summer. They were on clearance and in my size (I'm so lucky). What do you think of my new boots?

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I know they are sexy hu? I guess I will have to stay out of the mall for 2 weeks until my next check comes in. I just couldn't say no to those boots......you do understand don't you?!?!?

Shoes....I just love them. This is the latest pair that I am in love with. I love the green ones now I have have to do is buy a new outfit....sure I already have something to go with it but I can always use a good reason to do more shopping.

It has been a little while since I have been able to wear heels to work and I am loving every minute of it now! I went shopping over the weekend and found some great deals. I bought a dress....2 work outfits (for under $50), jewelry, and a cute black top and now these shoes....I am going to do more shopping before work. Hey, I have been a good girl and I deserve this.

I have a few more links that I need to add to my site......some clothing links and a few new blog link that I have found over the past few weeks. If anyone knows of any good shopping sites please don't keep them to yourself....share please!

I wish I could stay and chit chat with you but I have to get ready for work and then go shopping. Have a great day!

Thursday, January 26, 2006

pearl necklace

I saw this t shirt and I want it now.....when I saw this I laughed so hard...see Greg asked me about a "pearl necklace" when we were in the beginning stages of our relationship and I had no clue what he was talking about......now I know (after he made me feel stupid.....). So it is more of an inside joke with us because at the time I was stripping and I asked everyone what a "pearl necklace" was and nobody knew....I had guys laugh at me when I asked but I wanted to know.....now me and my girlfriends know what he was talking about....we just never heard the term "pearl necklace". See this was our "inside" joke and now it is not so "inside" anymore because you know now. ;)

See I was so naive....ya'll thought I was kidding!


Meme 36 : 2006-01-23 : List Three 2

1. List 3 things you see when you look to your left:
fan, christmas cards (not sent out..maybe next year), dvd collection

2. List 3 things you see when you look to your right:
front door, lamp, shoes

3. List the last 3 places you ate out at:
chipotle (great place for burritos and tacos...very addictive), cold stone (ice cream), Damon's bar and grill

4. List the last 3 things you bought:
shoes, haircare products, and new outfit for work.

5. List the last 3 songs you listened to:
lighters up....by Little Kim,
my lumps.....black eyed peas,
redneckwoman.....gretchen wilson

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

child support update

OK, James was over 10,000 behind in child support on Monday. He had court on Monday...guess how much he had to pay in back child support?

Do you give up?!?!? $260.00.....yep, you read right! I am soooo pissed. I don't even know what to do anymore. The courts don't care....I have e-mail everyone from the lunch lady at the local courthouse to the President of the United States. NOTHING IS HAPPENING! I wrote letters to every Judge in the court house. I have also wrote many letters to out state Governor. I have called everyone I can think of....e-mailed everyone I can think of. I even e-mail people who I know have nothing to do with child support just to get a reaction (lunch lady at courthouse).

I just don't get it! Why is nothing done? I know that there is nothing that you can do for me...but at least feel sorry for me. I can't even get those people on t.v. that say that they can get the money for me to help me because they want the loser to have a job or some way of getting to him....NOTHING!

Child Support Enforcement is such a JOKE!

Just in case you have never see one before......here is a picture of a deadbeat dad and a child sex offender.....I got James picture off of the Maryland child sex offender registry...so yes, this is an arrest picture.
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006

shrek is on a mission

I work with a woman who looks like shrek....I swear she does! Anyhoo, She is on a mission to get me and my friends in trouble...it is stupid really. We were all talking Friday because we got some free time. While my group of friends were talking around me someone had said a few curse words. Shrek turned around and in a very nasty tone she yelled at the 2 girls that were using "not nice language" she kept telling them that "we all have a potty mouth" I can accept that and so could the girls who said it. The girls told her that they were sorry but she kept getting louder about the whole situation. I was working on my computer with 3 other people and somehow we all the the anger directed towards all of us.

The situation was ugly but it ended and they said they were sorry and moved to another desk area away from her.

Yesterday Shrek decided to run her mouth at lunch by telling everyone who did not know about what happened that there was a problem Friday and we are "gutter trash" I normally would not take this to heart but I am and here is why.......

1) she talked about our mouth but what is she when she calls us "gutter trash"?
2) ya'll should know how I fell about my mother......right? My mother has called me a "gutter rat" and that cuts me deep.

The whole thing was brought to my supervisors attention but I have to work next Shrek and I know that I can't be civil to her....my best bet is to just keep my mouth shut! It will be hard but whatever........

Sunday, January 22, 2006

help me out ya'll

OK so I need you to keep me on my toes...I started this food diary blog on December and have not really kept up with it. I need to post what I am eating everyday and my weight and exercise routine for the day. I need ya'll to stay on top of me to make sure I am not slipping. I hate being at the weight I am at. So, please help a friend out. I have updated it so far today but will still have more to post. Check in with me...offer me help and criticism if needed (today is one of these days).

here is the link to my new blog http://photofooddiary.blogspot.com/

Why are you still here? Go help me out!

Saturday, January 21, 2006

I lose this battle...again.....



Well, I give up on the court system once again! James and Jessica get Anna on the visitation days and there is nothing that I can do about it. I hate the courts and I hate my mother...I can't wait for the day that bitch dies and I can piss on her grave! Yes, my hatred is that deep for that bitch. Nobody cares about Anna. They only want to hurt her and the court system will let them. If Anna ever gets in trouble I will just say to the courts that she is a product of the fucked up court system. Ask my little angel if she knows how to roll a blunt or if she knows how to pass money and drugs on the street or ask her if she knows what a crack pipe looks like or what a bag of weed looks like....she is willing to steal it from James and Jessica because they have so much that they won't notice (if you want some). Oh, she can also tell you what it looks like after someone shoots up and they eyes roll in the back of their head and how they just lay there limp until that "real good" high goes away.

These are just some of the things that my "innocent" little babies eyes have seen. FUCK YOU MOM!!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU AND I WISH YOU WOULD JUST FUCKING GO AWAY!!! NOBODY WANTS YOU AROUND YOU ARE A FUCKING CUNT!

Thursday, January 19, 2006


I came home from work last night....late (midnight) and I find out that when my daughter got to school yesterday her and another kid from her bus went to the principal about a little girl in kindergarten because this other child threatened my daughter and a by in her class (they are in 3rd grade) on the bus...she said that when my daughter goes to her home for her sisters party that she is going to take a knife and put it through my daughters head. Let me just tell you that this little girl is a total brat who lives down the street and tries to get attention the wrong way because her parents don't pay enough attention to the children that they have.

I was pissed when I got home and heard this. I was home almost all day....I never got a call...the school has no reason that they could not have called me....they have my home#, my cell#, Greg's cell#, my best friends cell#(as a contact). I made the decision to go to the school to get answers this morning.

I went into the school to talk to the principal and she made me mad because she kept saying that she was sorry....that was not good enough and what would she say if that girl brought a knife or gun into school and hurt my baby or somone else. I wanted to know why I was not called and she told me that she had to investigate and she was not done until late in the afternoon....my response was "well, I can be reached 24 hours 7 days a week....that is not good enough for me" and I also made it clear that I expect a call the same day if something like this is to ever happen again. I take this seriously and I expect the same from the school. I left the school felling secure in the fact the my concerns were valid and heard. I do not have time for this....there are to many things going on in the school today and my daughter should not be in fear of going to school. She was fine this morning and she knows that she can come to me or Greg about this or any other issue.

The school can not let me know how the other child will be disciplined but they did talk to the bus driver and several of the kids on the bus. I never thought that I would have to deal with this (not with a child in kindergarten).

Wednesday, January 18, 2006


I took Anna out for her birthday on Saturday. The first thing that we did was get her hair cut....it is really short now but she loves it.....here is a before picture
Image hosted by Photobucket.com after we went to get her haircut we went onto the city...we walked around and she bought a purse with a monkey on it(that's the cool in thing now....in case you did not know). After we did our shopping it was time to eat at her favorite place.....
Image hosted by Photobucket.com her shoulders are all scrunched up but her hair is short and she looks so cute. We also went to the movies to see Cheaper by the Dozen 2...it was a pretty good movie.

Anna did not get a call from anyone in my family or from James to wish her a Happy Birthday....I think it is bothering her but I will not take her to them...that is not my problem. I think that she is going to have to get a real view if how they are when it comes to this whole situation. You may think that I am wrong but I am going to be extremely open about everything from my childhood to the present....I am not sure how else to go about this but I do not want her to think that I am keeping her away from them just because I do not like them or for the reason of them not liking Greg. I guess I will find out sooner or later if this is the right decision. I hope it is......

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

gym craziness

I got a call from my best friend last night after she went to the gym. She said that on Saturday during our favorite class there was a fight. We both skipped class on Saturday and now I am glad that I did. She told me that one person stepped on another persons foot and the fight was on....I just think that the whole thing is just crazy! The class is popular and yes it gets crowded (thats why I stay in the front row). I was going to take Anna to class with me on Saturday and I think I still will. She will enjoy herself. I will not have stupid people who will not have a gym membership by the time summer rolls around ruin my day or my daughters day. I think that people take the whole "New Years Resolution" way out of hand. When I went to the gym on Monday (and this happens every year at this time) I get some of the dirtiest looks from people walking around the gym...I feel like I am being judged on my fitness level by people who "do not belong" I always say it and I will again...I hate this time of year. I wanted to run outside but its so nasty and rainy out today. I guess I will work on the abs and do my weights at home today. I am kinda glad that I am stopping my gym membership. The teacher of my clubbin' cardio class is going to offer me a special deal to just attend his class.....works for me!

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

wishful thinking

I hope this week goes by fast. I am just not felling the whole "work" thing this week. Anna will be 9 in less than a week and I plan on taking her out for a "girls day" this weekend....I am thinking on Saturday. I don't really have our day set in stone. I think we will just go with the flow.

I was thinking about taking her to the movies and out to eat any where she wants. There are two options I am sure she will decide from and they are both in the city. She wanted to go shopping in the city....so I am sure that part of our day will be there. I was also thinking about taking her to see a movie. We don't go to the movie theater that often because it is so expensive and half of the movies are just not worth it. The last movie I took her to was "Mean Girls".

I wish I could write more but I have to get ready for work. I wanted to thank everyone for the nice comments in my last post.....Thanks.

Monday, January 02, 2006


milkmaid~wanted to see a picture of me so here is one of many that I will post of myself.
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I'm on the right(with the really pretty curly hair) ;) This picture was taken at a wedding over the summer. At this point I was really drunk....can you tell?

old lady from the hills~wanted to know where I live.....I am in Maryland.

crypto~Have you gotten what you want out of blogging? I mean, when you started, did you think it would help, or was it just a release or outlet? Is the reason you write today the same reason you started? I am not sure what I was really expecting when I started blogging....I guess that I just needed a place to complain and I used this as my outlet. I hated my job and I wanted someone to know so I thought this was the best way to do that without getting fired. I left that job and have started my career with a very good company...so now I blog because I am addicted to it now.

pieces of me~what makes me under the title of purses? There is none that is better than the other. I decided the split up the list because it was getting a little large for me. I read everyone on my blogroll as much as I can. I can tell you that I love my purses......everytime I buy a new one that I really love I get a sting of good luck...usually money that I was not expecting. So, I am very fond of my purses. I hope this answers your question.

erin~wants to see a picture of me and also asked how has blogging affected your life, good and bad? Blogging help me get the strength that I needed to change my job. When I would go back to old posts I would be reminded of why I wanted to leave my job. When I started to get brave and post pictures of myself I had an "evil" person make nasty comments so I stopped. Now that I have changed my blog address I will start posting pictures again. I took down the few pictures that I did have up. That was a bad blogging experience.

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momsgoneloony~wants to know about my "rating system"....and wants a picture.....I do not use it as a rating system now...I did at first but there was no real system to it. I love purses, jewelry, and shoes...they are like children....I love them all so much and they are all special in their own way.

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delite~wants to see a picture.........wow, I guess I did not realize that this was that important to everyone....so once again her is another picture of me.

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suzanne~ wanted to know who did my blog design and she wants to see a picture also. martine did my blog design...she did a wonderful job!

layman~What do you do to keep healthy and what is your daily routine like? I eat right...I have many meals but I eat what is right. Since I stopped stripping and I met my wonderful husband who is a great cook I have gain a lot of weight. I am very selfconsience of my weight and how I look....it does not help that I am top heavy so I look heavier than I am if I am not wearing tight clothes. I work out 5x a week on a "regular" week. When I first met with Todd(my personal trainer) in May of 2005 I had 47.7% of body fat. The last time I saw Todd my body fat % was 28%......I am working on it and things are going well right now...I am not looking for that quick fix...I want long term. P.S.~ thanks for the rest of your comment to me....that was sweet.

rebky~How much weight have you lost?What helped you the most loose it.. your 'secret weapon'?How old are you?What is your new job?Are you going to show us some pictures with your new camera?? I have lost 10lbs but have lost almost 20% of my fat. I have a lot of support from my husband and my personal trainer and that is what has really helped me. I am 27 yrs old. I work in customer relations. I have posted lots of picture but I do not want to have you fell left out...so here is a picture just for you.

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yara~have you ever post something that was too embarrassing and have you removed it then again. And are there things that you find too embarrassing to even post in the first place. I did make a post about my husband and I removed it about 30 min after I posted it. I do not find anything really too embarrassing to post.....I just post what ever is on my mind.

It's my 1 year Anniversary

It is my first Blog Anniversary!!! In honor of me today I will let you run the show. I am open to any questions and/or compliments that you may want to send my way. Please don't be shy....ask as many questions as you want...I may even have some pictures to post...I have been playing with my camera all weekend.

dinner experience

Yesterday when we were out to buy my new ab machine and buy Greg a camera we decided to get dinner while we were out. Our choice was at a local Taco Bell. Greg and Anna like to pick up illegal sign on the side of the road and take them home. Anna has a ball "cleaning" up the streets with her dad. You know what signs I am talking about...the 1-555-got-junk....we buy houses....we buy cars.....etc...these are all illegal signs and they make out neighborhood look trashy. Anyways, I stayed in the car while they were cleaning up the streets. We were still the the parking lot after eating dinner and Greg found a bag of dope on the ground. He said that it looked like it was a good amount...maybe about $100 street value of dope. I was in shock and angry....what if a child picked that up off the ground when they stop to get dinner. The area that this happened in use to be a nice area but now it is so trashy. We live pretty close to the city and it seems like as each year passes it just gets worse.

The area we were in yesterday is near where my old job at the home improvement store was. They always wanted us to park at the end of the lot but I never would. One of the places that they wanted us to park was right next to the sheds. No thank you! The homeless guys would sneak in to the sheds at night and leave in the morning. They have been known to harass the women who work there and they have also stolen form the cars.

Not long ago someone nail the doors shut on the shed while they were in there so they could not get out and they called the cops on them. I think that has slowed down some of the theft but I am not to sure.

The crazy part is that we live about 3 miles from there but our neighborhood is so quiet and you hardly ever see the cops around here because it is just such a quiet place to live....but 3 mile away....forget it!

I am very open with my daughter and she is aware of drugs, what they are, and what they can do to you. We watch cops with her and she sees how stupid people look and act when it comes to drugs. I am glad that she knows this and it makes it easier to answer her questions and she is more open with us about drugs. Some people may not agree with the way we handle this but at lease I know that she is aware and I feel confident that if she saw that on the ground that she would not have picked it up.

I never had the "don't do drugs" talk with my parents. James was getting high in front of me and I had not clue....I don't want Anna to be as naive as I was. It was not a good thing for me. I did not really understand about the different drugs and what affects that they have until I was stripping and had been exposed to it (with James) for a few years. I have never used drugs. When I danced I drank a lot....but never touched anything else. Close to when I stopped dancing I tried some valium but that is as far as it has gone. To this day I will not touch anything else I am scared to death of drugs. I could not afford it anyways.

How so you handle talking about drugs to your children?

Sunday, January 01, 2006

getting ready for summer

I have lots to do before May. I want to get my abs lookin' beautiful and this wonderful thing will help me get there. I have been working out on it today and I can really feel it working. The only bad thing about it is that it does not fold but Greg is going to work on fixing that for me. Right now it is in out livingroom set up but that is ok because it is really comfortable and I can just sit, watch tv, and work out during the commercial breaks.

When I went to the gym yesterday I cancelled my membership because I am paying almost $60 a month and I have only made it to that gym twice in December. I have access to the gym at work and I have weights, a cardio machine, and now the ab lounge 2. I plan on doing a lot of walking and I plan on using the gym at work more often. I meet with Todd next Tuesday and I hope that all is going to go well. I haven't had any bad news...I am just really hard on myself about my weight. This is not part of my "New Years Resolution" this is part of my plan that I started in May. I have been working really hard to make the lifestyle changes that are needed to make sure that I will live a long and healthy life.

I will update again tomorrow.