if you do the crime.....

I have a lot of things going on right now and there is one thing that has been bothering me the past few days and that is my police record. Yes....nice sweet innocent Dawn had a record.

5 1/2 years ago I was at the courthouse to drop some papers off (I forget what it was about now). Anyways, I pulled into a parking space and was letting my brother know that I would only be a minute and he was going to watch Anna in the car for me. It was a nice day in April so my car windows were down.

A woman was getting into her brothers car next to me when she slammed her car door into my car and did not even bother to look over to see if she did any damage. She did not realize that I was sitting in the car. I made a comment to my brother "can you believe that bitch just hit my car with her car door?" The next thing I know she was screaming and walking to my side of the car and tried to reach her hand in the window to hit me. I rolled my car window up and pulled out of the spot. I did not want to get my daughter upset so I was just going to leave.

She stood in front of my car when I pulled out of the parking spot so I could not go anywhere. I figured that I would pull up to the front of the courthouse to find a cop. She jumped on the hood of my car! I did not know what to do this woman was crazy! I drove with her on my hood for about 20 feet in the parking lot so I could find a cop.

She got off my hood and went to a police officer and I went up to another. When she got done she bought herself a hotdog and I got locked up for 2nd degree assault. I got bailed out that night and court was set for August.

I had to get a public defender. When I met with my public defender she told me that she had no information about the woman. When I mentioned that I wanted a jury trial she told me that was not a good idea. I figured that she knew what she was doing so I trusted her judgment.

On the day of court I had my brother with me as a witness. They never talked to my brother. The woman was in court with not witness. I got sentenced the 10 days but I only had to do 7 days because I was a good girl while I was locked up and did not cause any problems.

I found out later on that the reason they did not want to do a jury trial was because she worked in that courthouse as a judges secretary....so she knew my judge, my public defender, the arresting police officer, etc...... I guess you get the point.

I just got fucked in that whole situation. This will haunt me for the rest of my life and it is just not fair. This is just one more reason that I do not trust cops, judges or lawyers.

this will be short

I am going to be very busy this week. I have something going on but I will have to keep that to myself until the time is right to announce it to everyone.

I meet with Todd tomorrow to check on my progress with the weight loss. I am sure that will go fine....not to worried about that. I have to spend time with my family so I will catch up I hope sometime Wednesday. I promise I will explain what is going on soon enough.

P.S.~ My "Cheap" jewelry came in today!!!! I will have pictures of everything this week.

funny

An old one but good

Larry gets home late one night and his wife, Linda, says

"Where in the hellhave you been?"

He replies, "I was out getting a tattoo."

"A tattoo?" she frowned. "What kind of tattoo did you get?"

"I got a hundred dollar bill on my privates," he said proudly.

"What the hell were you thinking?" she said, shaking her head in disdain."Why on earth would an accountant get a hundred dollar bill tattooed on his privates?"

"Well, one, I like to watch my money grow, two, once in a while I like to play with my money, three, I like how money feels in my hand and lastly, instead of you going out shopping, you can stay right here at home and blow a hundred bucks anytime you want."

I am going to be a Mrs.

We got our marriage license today. I am one step closer to becoming a Mrs. (how cool is that?). I got off of work early today and we went to get the license and then we went to lunch at fuddruckers. That place in not in my eating plan but it was really good!

We also stopped by to look at the new HHR and all I can say is that I am in love. The car looks so much better when you see it up close. This will be my next car.

I'm babysitting my girlfriends daughter tonight so she can go out with her man. I have some shopping to do at target tonight for the baby shower on Sunday. I also have some neglected cleaning to do that was "missed" this week. Oh, I also have a MAJOR gym trip to make due to the fact that I did not get to the gym much this week.

I guess I have to go now because I have a lot to do before the end of the day and it is already 4pm. Wow, where did the day go.

P.S.~ I can not wait for my "cheap and trashy" jewelry to arrive from playboy......you know what I am talking about the one that gives me "no self esteem" (this comment is for my "friend".....you know who you are).

I told ya so

I knew this week would fly by. We got our new kitchen sink in and it looks beautiful! My Avon order comes in today. The set I got from Playboy is on backorder but I am still waiting on it. I have a babyshower to attend this weekend for a co-worker of mine.

Tomorrow is my short day and then the weekend will be here. Things are just flowing right along like they should be. I have to cut this short because I have to head back to work. I will check back in later.

things are good

I will have an easy week. Greg and I will get our marriage license this week. I am going to get the whole set tonight. I also have some stuff on its way from the home party I went to this weekend. My Avon order comes in this week also so I have all kinds of goodies on the way. I will post pictures of everything as they come in. I just love shopping.

I have a fairly decent Avon order this week. Almost $400...so I am happy about that.

I hope this week goes by fast. Tomorrow is Tuesday so that is good...at least Monday is over. I do not really have any major plans just a bunch of little things happening this week. We are putting out new kitchen sink with our new faucet and water filter in tomorrow. I can't wait...it will make the kitchen look so much different. I hate our sink and faucet that we have now.

I think that is all that is going on right now. I hope to get a good picture tomorrow of my new beautiful sink.

Quiet Sunday

This has been a great weekend. Anna is being good. Greg is making a wonderful dinner. He is also going to buy me the jewelry below. I found it on the playboy site...you can find the link on my sidebar.



I have a lot of work to do tonight. I need to be more organized. I can't seem to find anything when I am looking for it. I wish I could post something better today but I have lots to do. I will catch up tomorrow...I hope!

today

I went to a jewelry party today at a co-workers home. I felt really out of place. I just don't fit into the clique. I only went because she is my boss and I was trying to be nice. I also look over the book before the party and they did have some nice stuff in the book. I bought 3 items and I will show them to you once they come in.

Anna is at my girlfriends house tonight so it is quite here and I am going to just enjoy the adult time.

he's alive

I work in the credit department and we collect payments and fix salesmen mistakes. We send people to the lawyer when they receive service and do not pay after a few attempts to collect their debt.

We got a letter from the lawyer that one of our customers passed away and we can not collect on his debt because he is the one that signed the contract for service. The job that I had before I started to work in the credit department I use to work very close with our customers. I was curious and asked what customer she got a notice about. I looked the information up in the computer as she was looking at a copy of the death certificate.

"He died in May 2004." She said
I was quiet for a moment and then I said....
"Hey, how could he sign a contract when he was dead for 5 months before his project?"

This guys wife signed a contract for business and refused to pay the balance because she signed his name on the contract because you can not collect from a dead guy. I have a MAJOR problem with that. I think she will go to hell for this.....how can she use her dead husbands name to screw people over. Some people have no class.

The lawyers are looking at the situation to see what they can do about it. It is pretty plain to see that is is her handwriting on the contract (in his name) and we have her signature on another piece of paper. I hope she gets what is coming to her.

my baby

This is a picture of my baby when she was cheerleading 2 years ago...cute hu? She made the front page!

James Part 14

I left the hospital with mom and my stepdad. When we got to the house I found half of Anna's things in the livingroom and I found the baby bottle bank that I was saving money for her in also in the living room....EMPTY!

I remember sitting down on the couch and crying my eyes out. Mom yelled at me and said something about not putting up with my post pardum depression and to snap out of it. This was not post pardum anything...this was wanting to KILL my sister. My daughter was not even born yet and "family" was stealing from her. What a life to bring a baby into. I wish I had a real mother that would have talked to me and then I may have had sense enough to not fall for a heroin addict and get pregnant by him and live in a motel with rats and live off of "theft" money. Never knowing what the next second of my day will be like. Now I had a baby as added pressure. Although, Anna was not added pressure. She was the only thing in my life that made any sense. She was my angel. She could not do any wrong EVER. I will be a perfect mom and I will do better than my mother. I will show my daughter that she is loved!

My world changed with her. Everything was perfect because I blocked everyone else out. Anna was sleeping through the night at 2 weeks. I was still in high school but I was on the home school program for a few weeks. A week after Anna was home I was back to my old figure and I felt good. I was doing my homework by reading to Anna. Home school was a joke! As long as you can read then they will pass you.

Anna was 2 weeks old when the cops caught up to James and he was locked up. This is the first time he was really locked up since we were together and I made sure that I wrote to him almost everyday. I was back in school and I was doing the best that I could for me and Anna.

Mom was getting on my case that I was never home for Anna.....I was in school! I did not stay after and I never went out without her. This is just one example of how stupid she can be. I did manage to get a job when Anna was about 2 months old and right around that time James came home from jail.

Mom had been acting crazy and Anna was sick but I could not use our phone to call her doctor because mom was at work and she made sure we had no access to a phone when she was not home. (I told you that she is a control freak)

I used a neighbors phone and this is about the time that I decided to move away as soon as I could.

I stayed with a friend and had all of Anna's things with me. We stayed there for about 2 weeks before everything changed and my life took a turn for the worst.......Some people say that children are too young to know anything...they are not smart enough...they can always bounce back...but they are wrong!!!!! I know for a fact!

to be continued.......

to read the other parts of my James story click here.

Learn Chinese

this is my opinion

As you all know today is 9/11. A day that we will all remember in our own way. As I was reading other blogs I realized that I am sick of the racial divide that Katrina has turned into.

We all came together during the tragedy of 9/11. I remember where I was and what I was doing and the first person who told me about the plane hitting the world trade center. It was a very sad day and so hard to believe...even today I am still in shock. I did not know anyone who was hurt but we are all affected by this. My brother is in Iraq and my youngest brother is trying to go over there. I have many friends who are there and it does worry me but I do have faith in our President....I did vote for him and I know he is doing his best and I do believe that he is doing his best now with Katrina. I know people will disagree with me but this is how I feel.

We showed the world how we could all come together during 9/11 and now we are showing the world how far apart we are with Katrina instead of all coming together to show that we can overcome MOTHER NATURE we are showing the world how NOT TO ACT!

We can all do better than this.....lets show the world that we are able to help one another....black, white, green, blue, and purple. This could have happened to anyone of us......we never know what tomorrow may bring. I also believe that one good turn deserves another and everything happens for a reason. God does not dish out things that he does not think you can handle.

I am sure that not everyone will agree with me but this is my blog and this is how I feel so please respect that like I respect you.

something to think about

Thought for the Day

Some people are like slinkies
Not really good for anything,
But they still bring a smile to your face
when you push them down a
flight of stairs.

shopping

Once again I am such a good girlfriend. I was at Target today and I found the Vanilla Flavored Tootsie Rolls for my honey. We found these last year around Halloween but even after e-mailing the tootsie people we could not get any bags of just the Vanilla ones. I have never had any so I can not tell you if they are any good but......Greg loves them and he is very picky when it comes to food, he won't eat just anything...so these must be good.

I guess Target will only carry them around October. If you want to know what to get me as a wedding gift then just do me a favor and send an e-mail to the tootsie people and ask (beg) them to continue selling his favorite treat. I know you will and this is why I love all of you!

Thank you for your time in this very important plea for help. I have to go listen to my new CD that I bought from Target.

This is a picture of dinner.....taco, sunny d, and 100 proof absolute....yummy! I am starting my vacation off on a drunk foot. I am still in my drinking mode so if I stop by you site and leave a comment that makes no sense please forgive me. I have had a rough week at work...it is better now though because I am off for the next three days.

I have no real plans for this weekend but I am sure that I will get into some type of trouble. I want to go out to a club this weekend.

I went to Anna's back to school night and can you believe that they have homework on Friday's...what ever happened to a weekend? Her teachers seem nice and I hope that I can count on the teachers this year to talk to me about Anna's progress. Every year the teachers have a request list of things they need for the classroom.....this year they asked for the normal post it notes, glue, trash bags (?), and a cruise for the teachers......I picked up the one for the trash bags....I'm no dummy!

I will leave now so I can visit ya'll.

I was good today

I ate like I should have plus I had a bag of Andy Capp hot fries and when I went to Anna's school I had a meatball and a mini cookie. I went to the gym and did my weights and 30 min. of cardio. I did not eat anything past 7:30...so I would have to say that it was a good day.

Tomorrow is my last day before my long weekend. I think that I am going to meet up with my girlfriend tomorrow because she wants me to register at Target for my wedding...she is going to let her family know so they can buy me something. We are getting married at the courthouse so nobody will be there but I can't wait...I will be a Mrs.

I have a lot to do before I go to bed and today has been very busy...I will catch up tomorrow.

update

I saw Todd today and we came up with a plan to speed up the weight loss so I can be ready for my wedding. I meet with him again in 3 weeks to track my progress. I have to workout 6x a week...but I can do it! I did my clubbin' cardio class for 45 min. today. That is a good start. Tomorow will be weights and 45 min. of cardio.

I just got done making my chicken for the rest of the week. It will be chicken, rice and broccoli for me for another 2 months.....no cheating this time. I will be putting my meals on here so I can keep better track if I have to answer to all of you. I am requesting that you help keep me on track.....I have to look wonderful on my wedding day!

That is enough weight loss talk for tonight.....I am going to watch TV and then get some sleep.

getting back into the swing of things.....

I have been really busy and this week is also going to be crazy! I am trying to get back into the whole "school spirit" thing for Anna.

I meet with my personal trainer tomorrow to see about my progress. This month has been kinda crazy though because of my vacation and then me being sick for a little over 2 weeks did not help much. I guess I will know the truth tomorrow.

I will give you an update after I meet with Todd.

in case you have not seen this

http://media.putfile.com/Kanye79 go there to see how he feels.....I am left speechless...I heard about what was said but seeing it is a different experience.

I'll be back

I have nothing good to post. Everyone is talking about Katrina and it is getting everyone into a fight of comments. I will shut my computer off for a few days and the TV stations are turned away from the news coverage.....no radio stations on.

I think that we should try to help not fight over who gets treated how. There are a lot of things to take into account when looking at this situation and nobody wants to look at everything...instead we only take away want we want to from all of this. That is fine to do because we are all free to have our own opinions but I will not listen to this anymore.

I gave to the Red Cross. I will also donate money through my gym to help with the relief efforts. I have seen and heard enough and I am sick of it all...I want to feel for the everyone's loss not have the black/white debate.

I hope you all have a great weekend and pray for the victims...life is to short to fight over this.