Saturday, December 31, 2005


I am not sure about you but I plan on having a many, many drinks tonight to celebrate the new year. I hope to have plenty of picture for you tomorrow....maybe I can save a few to start the HNT like everyone else. Normally alcohol does not have a bad affect on me the next day but who knows what may happen in 2006!

Who else will be posting HNNY (half naked new years)?!?!?! Let me know if you do before you wise up tomorrow (after the hangover) and take them down (haha).

I don't have any plans tonight other than drinking what is already in the house and being home with my honey. What are your plans?

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

nothing new

There has not been anymore drama. I am waiting though because I bet that my mom is still in the hospital. I am sure that when she gets out she will try something. It is kinda crazy to have to live on egg shells like I do when this starts to happen but she will call social services to tell them that I am a bad mother and then they will start to investigate me "again". You would think that there should be a time when she says enough is enough and just let it go......but, that is not how my "family" works.

I am ready this time....bring it on. I have already decided that they only want to make my life hell. They do not want Anna. They can not do anything to really hurt me, they have tried many times. I guess that I should just welcome the new year and all the new drama that will come along with it.


I'm loving life right now. My work schedule has changed and it should make things a little easier for me. I am working really hard to get myself "beach ready" by May. That is a hard thing to do because I am super hard on myself when it comes to my weight. Don't worry though I am doing things the hard way...making sure that I am eating right and not starving myself....I am not looking for the quick fix....this is a life style change. I have been working on it since May and I am doing really great.

I am not going to do any New Years Resolutions this year. Everytime I do I never follow through. I have goals and I am working towards achieving them so that is where my focus is at right now.

Do you have a New Years Resolution?

Monday, December 26, 2005

why the change?

I decided to change my blog address for the main reason of me not wanting my family to know what is going on with me. I have a feeling that court battles are going to start again and I know that my mom had my address before so I just wanted to be on the safe side by changing the blog address. Nobody else has this. I did go down my blogroll and stopped by a few people who I still need to blogroll to let everyone know that I am still around I just "changed names". I can now be more open on my blog without watching every little thing that I say.

My brother called my Thursday night to let me know that my mom had a massive heart attack. In my opinion all that I can say is "good" why should I care? I have had enough with all of them. Anna's father showed up at my house today and wanted to know when he can see Anna. I informed him that he would have to take me to court. He said to me "I can be an ass about this and take you to court." I said "please...I would really love that!" I also mentioned that when he is paid up on child support that he can see Anna. He is almost $10,000 behind..he will never see Anna.

There should be lots of drama coming my way so stay tuned.

Sunday, December 25, 2005

year in review

January~ I started my blog and I posted about hating my retail job.

February~ I got out off the Installed Sales position at work and was moved into a Credit Coordinator position. I also had surgery (no more babies).

March~ I tried to get my husband to buy me a stripper pole (I still do not have it...yet). I started my James posts (I had 6 James posts that month)

April~ It was a crazy month....girl got stuck on the train tracks outside of my house and had to be towed away. First and only picture of my crackhead sister was posted. I took my first spinning class. I posted a picture of my favorite "hooker boots". Anna asked to get an MRI to see how big her brain has gotten. I found Anna's father on the internet as a child sex offender. Oh, lets not forget about my car problems.

May~ Another busy of my boobs in my motorcycle shirt. I took lots of on-line quizzes. Mothers Day, My Birthday. Pictures of my brother in Iraq and all your comments directed towards his safe return(thanks for that). My mother found out about my blog. My stepson moved back into his room and I lost my closet (it was such a sad day for all my shoes and purses). My blog got a new look. I posted pictures of my tattoos.

June~ My 20 year old brother finally graduated from high school. Family drama, child support drama. Anna graduated 2nd grade. Q&A's answers and even a picture to your questions.

July~ I needed help with how to have the "birds and the bees" talk with my daughter. July 4th family drama. Anna went on vacation with my dad. My brother got a tattoo and mom freaked. I went to a friends wedding and had sooo much fun. I admitted to ya'll that I can't swim.

August~ lost weight at a "text book" level. Went on vacation and almost hit a turtle and a deer int he road. I started a James post blog so they are all in one place. Gas prices were crazy! I had problems with an anonymous commenter. I gave blood for the first time. I took pictures of myself off my blog because of the mean comments(I regret it now)

September~ Katrina. Dinner, taco and 100 proof absolute. People are like slinkies. I got my new kitchen sink. We got our marriage license. I am a criminal post.

October~ I spent most of the month looking for a wedding outfit. I stopped selling Avon. I got a new more retail for me! James is over $9,000 behind in child support.

November~ I am a married woman! I started my new job. Girls night out. Some if the girls at work were jealous of me because I walk with confidence(crazy I know).

December~ I started another new blog. I have been shopping a lot. I made my 300th post.

I hope I have plenty to talk about next year......

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Andy Rooney

I got this in an e-mail

Andy Rooney said on "60 Minutes" a few weeks back:

I don't think being a minority makes you a victim of anything except numbers. The only things I can think of that are truly discriminatory are things like the United Negro College Fund, Jet Magazine, Black Entertainment Television, and Miss Black America. Try to have things like the United Caucasian College Fund, Cloud Magazine, White Entertainment Television, or Miss White America; and see what happens...Jesse Jackson will be knocking down your door.

Guns do not make you a killer. I think killing makes you a killer. You can kill someone with a baseball bat or a car, but no one is trying to ban you from driving to the ball game.

I believe they are called the Boy Scouts for a reason, that is why there are no girls allowed. Girls belong in the Girl Scouts! ARE YOU LISTENING MARTHA BURKE?

I think that if you feel homosexuality is wrong, it is not a phobia, it is an opinion. I have the right "NOT" to be tolerant of others because they are different, weird, or tick me off.

When 70% of the people who get arrested are black, in cities where 70% of the population is black, that is not racial profiling, it is the Law of Probability.

I believe that if you are selling me a milkshake, a pack of cigarettes, a newspaper or a hotel room, you must do it in English! As a matter of fact, if you want to be an American citizen, you should have to speak English! My father and grandfather didn't die in vain so you can leave the countries you were born in to come over and disrespect ours.

I think the police should have every right to shoot your sorry ass ifyou threaten them after they tell you to stop. If you can't understand the word "freeze" or "stop" in English, see the above lines.

I don't think just because you were not born in this country, you are qualified for any special loan programs, government sponsored bank loans or tax breaks, etc., so you can open a hotel, coffee shop, trinket store, or any other business.

We did not go to the aid of certain foreign countries and risk our livesin wars to defend their freedoms, so that decades later they could comeover here and tell us our constitution is a living document; and open to their interpretations.

I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor.I know pro wrestling is fake, but so are movies and television. That doesn't stop you from watching them.

I think Bill Gates has every right to keep every penny he made and continue to make more. If it ticks you off, go and invent the next operating system that's better, and put your name on the building.

It doesn't take a whole village to raise a child right, but it does take a parent to stand up to the kid; and smack their little behinds when necessary, and say "NO!"

I think tattoos and piercing are fine if you want them, but please don't pretend they are a political statement. And, please, stay home until that new lip ring heals. I don't want to look at your ugly infected mouth as you serve me French fries!

I am sick of "Political Correctness." I know a lot of black people, and not a single one of them was born in Africa; so how can they be"African-Americans"? Besides, Africa is a continent. I don't go around saying I am a European-American because my great, great, great, great,great, great grandfather was from Europe. I am proud to be from America and nowhere else!

Monday, December 19, 2005


I have had a crazy year. I was looking back at my first few posts and wow, I was angry back then. I hated my was just crazy! I was more open back then also. I think I need to get back to that again.....I need to vent and get the bad things out. I guess this blog is the only thing that kept me sane during the "worst job of my life" time period.

My new job is good so far but I am still in training so it is easy right now. I can't wait to get into a regular schd. I know that my hours are going to be anywhere from 7am to 11pm. I don't have a problem with the times because I am use to working "retail" shifts. I really hate working the middle of the day. I want to open or close. I hate those days when your whole day is gone because you don't have time in the morning or at night to do anything. I like one extreme or the other.

I have been a good girl with my workouts and I am sore from working my abs so hard. I did some weight training today and will do major cardio tomorrow. I meet with Todd about my progress and I am positive about our meeting tomorrow.

I will keep ya'll updated on out meeting.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

why now

Things are so peaceful. Life is going well....a little busy but it is still going well for us. Last night I get a call from my stepmom. She said that she was going to mail a box of gifts out for Anna for Christmas. FYI...they live 10 miles from me.

Anyhoo...why do they want to come around now. Lets be real shall we....I know that they do not want to be around me or Anna. We don't act like a real family. If you have been following me for awhile you know that my family is crazy and they only mean harm.

It is best for everyone involved of they just keep to themselves. I do not go around trying to bother them and all I want is to be left alone. (this may sound like I am the mean one if you have not read the history but trust me I am right on this one).

I do not need the added stress that they bring with them. Nothing good ever comes out of the family situation. I have tried on the past to have that family relationship that I so desperately thought that I needed and wanted. I learned the hard way that my family is crazy and they are not normal.....not any of them. I am the only sane one (I swear).

When I answered that phone I did not realize that it was her...I was pissed at myself for answering the phone but there is nothing I can do to change that now. I hope that this will be the last of this topic that I will have to write about. I will keep ya'll updated and I hope to have a new James post up soon also.

Saturday, December 17, 2005

HAPPY 300!

This is my 300th post! HAPPY 300 to me!!!

I am enjoying my day off today! No work for me this weekend. I went to the gym, went shopping and that's it! Life is great! Wish me a Happy 300 and come back later.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005


I am not sure if you read my post last week about the snow and how I got "fucked" out of overtime....They did not get overtime but they get to leave 4 hours early tomorrow and I can leave early too. That is very fair and I am glad that they are making things right.

I think I am going to go shopping tonight and then come home and have a drink or two. It is not like I am going to have a long day at work tomorrow. I hope to get the last of my Christmas shopping done and all the gifts wrapped.

Over the weekend we found out that Anna is allergic to peanuts....not good. I never knew how many things she would be restricted from eating. I am still doing research on it so I am learning.

I went to Social Security Admin. office to get the name change on my card but that was just a BAD experience. They are so ignorant and I wish I could have slapped the old lady behind the counter.

me: excuse me

old lady: you need to sign in

me: I just need some information

old lady: what

me: what will I need to get my name changed on my ss card?

old lady: marriage license and drivers license

me: ok

old lady: you will need to make an appointment

me: ok, can I make an appointment

old lady: you don't need an appointment for that

me: (confused) ok.......

old lady: you can take an application and fill it out and send it back in if you like

me: that sounds like a good idea (I don't want to come back around these nuts)

old lady: you need to send in documentation with the application

me: ok, I just need to make copies?

old lady: you must send us the original.

me: that does not make any sense.....I guess you are trying to tell me that I have to come back

old lady: no, you can mail in the application and original copies of the marriage license and drivers license

Please tell me that I am not the only one that thinks that this is a problem.

I should not be doing this

I should be getting ready for work and making my breakfast but here I am on the computer. I need a day to myself this weekend to pamper me....any ideas?

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

new blog

I know that I don't really have time as it is but....I really have to work on my weight loss. I started a new blog because I need to really see what I am doing to myself. I will have a new plan on my cell phone that gives me free picture message so I can post lots of pictures so there is no reason to not see what I am eating.

Right now I can not take pictures with the cell phone but I will be able to do that soon. If you have tome stop by to see what I am doing over there.

Monday, December 12, 2005

how r u?

I have been busy....and I have not had the time to come around and visit all my friends in blog world. I will get around to everyone before the week is over....I miss all of my reading. I am done working part time for my old job and I will have my weekends back.

There is so much that I have going on right now and so much that I can blog about but I can not find the time to sit down to write about it. I have some more Christmas shopping to do tonight and then.....I hope.....that I can give up an update on my child support case, my job, Christmas, and my weight loss goals.

Please stay with me everyone.....I will be back!

Friday, December 09, 2005


I am having a really bad day. I got up this morning to clean the snow off my car to make it into work at 6am. I called the emergency line for work and we did not have a delayed opening. I left 35 minutes earlier then I am normally do and the drive was awful. Traffic was not real bad at 5am this morning and I took my time so the drive was ok.

When I got to the office I noticed that there were only a few cars there. As I walked up to the door I saw my trainer and he told me that he just got word that we were on a delayed opening. I was not happy and stressed that to him and all he said was that he was sorry but the center does not open until 10 and he would see me then. I made a few calls to let some of the others know that we were delayed and I headed home.

It was nice to be home and everyone was sleeping. I had a chance to do some cleaning and just relax.

When I got to work I found out that there were people that did not see the trainer and they worked from 6am until I saw them at 10am. We all get the same 8 hrs of pay but.....they also get 4 hours of overtime for staying. I was PISSED because if I know that I did not have to drive back home in that mess I would have stayed there. I just got fuck in that deal.

Just so I know that I am not alone.....please tell me that you think that I am right for being so PISSED OFF about this.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

my shoes

for somereason blogger is not posting my whole post.....I am not sure why but I will keep trying! is everyone? I am doing well. Greg gave me my Christmas money) notice that I use the word CHRISTMAS not "holiday") we will touch on that subject later......

I have lots of shopping to do so Greg gave me money this year to buy clothes for work. I only bought one pair of dress pants (they are a cross between capris and highwaters) they are black and I love them. I am going to wear them tomorrow with a red turtleneck top and these boots
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they are so

I love them.....I know that I should have been buying clothes and not more shoes but I go a really good deal and how could I pass it up? I mean after all I was working in a warehouse for almost 5 years so I have some catching up to do. I got rid of so much in the last few years that now I have lots of shopping to do! So here is another pair of boots that I bought
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I know that it seems like all I have are boots.....(I love them) so I decided to buy these also
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so.....what do you think of my new shoes? I just love heels....I think that the heels could be a little bit higher but.....I did get a good deal and that is what matters.....right?