School is in session

Anna went back to school today and so did I. I have lots of homework that I should be doing but instead I am on the computer writing in my blog. I hope that ya'll are doing fine. I know that I had good intentions of writing everyday but I think that only lasted for about 1 day. Oh well, what can I do I am so bust right now. With Anna back in school and I's still trying to catch up at work from my vacation life is just bust not to mention the 4 classes that I am taking this fall.

I will try my best to stay up-to-date with this blog. Also I plan on writing another James post soon. I have not done that in a few months. I just hate to take myself back to that time in my life....it's painful. For those of you who have no idea what I am talking about you can check my profile and view the blog of "my crazy past."

Well, I have homework to do...talk to ya'll later!!!!

back to work

I had to get back to the real world today. Vacation was over for me and back to the real world. I hate to admit it but I like working sometimes and the people I work with are pretty cool. That really helps make the day go by a lot easier.

I worked a little bit of overtime today to help gather some money for shopping trips. If I plan of losing weight I have to purchase hot new clothes and that cost money right?!?! Anyways, I am working a little bit of overtime for extra spending money to also get the credit cards paid off by Christmas time. My husband keeps me in line with our spending...that's why I love him so much.

Ok, enough with all that mushy stuff......do you all know that Christmas is right around the corner...once September gets here the year is over! I hate to break it to ya'll but that's the truth. I hate this time of year. I hate the reality that the year is over and there is nothing that I can do to try to slow it down.....help I feel like I am falling......

is it called getting older or smarter?

I have a girlfriend that I use to work with almost 7 years ago when I was stripping. She stopped dancing 3 years ago and now she is getting ready to go back. I tried to let her in on how she could make it without dancing but she really does not want anything out of life than that. It is all she knows.

It is what she has done since she was 15 and she is in her 30's now. She looks great but needs to stop at some point right? Don't you have to get a "real job" and take care of your family...after all this is the reason her marriage is breaking up. She was not just a dancer she got "sucked in" and let money control her actions. As her daughter starts high school I just do not think that it is a good idea. It's hard to hide the lifestyle from them and that is not something she wants for her daughter.

I think back on it every so often and I think that the money was good and we had a lot of fun. The job was good at times. I mean really....where else can a girl listen to music, drink, flirt and make money. Now...I am not sure what women think about strippers but trust me we do not want your husband, boyfriend, man or whatever he is.....all we want is his money and if he comes into my club my job is to take his money. I really miss those days. We sure did have some fun times.

We got some crazy ones also. I could tell you some stories that would turn your stomach. There are some sick mother fuckers out there. There are also guy who just want to talk to a nice girl (really) and it's nice when you get guys like that. There were times when we would break down. It was bound to happen to us. It's hard to deal with the guys some days....it gets to be too much. There are other days when it is like a power trip. I was talking to a friend who told me that a guy once told her to look at her self in the mirror and she did..there are mirrors all over the place. She saw herself but had lost herself and could not really see "her" it's all a game....you are not really "you"....you are who ever they are paying you to be....."you" have no identity....."you" think you do but really you are a plastic doll waiting to be told what to do. You have a some boundaries but for the most part you are there to make a man happy and he makes you happy with money the more money the more happiness that goes around.

I guess that she wants this feeling back.....I will be there for he no matter what...we have been friends for over 9 years now and we have a friendship tattoo on our ankle a group of girls I danced with got tattoos to symbolize our friendship and our struggles together.

I forgot where I started

I started my blog for me and in that whole process I lost myself. I worried about who was reading, who I might offend, how many comments I might get, what I should write about that would entertain and be funny. In the midst of that crazy process I lost myself. I stopped thinking or even caring about what others would think. I keep everything in. I felt bad for some of the readers who would come by to visit me because I just did not have time to visit them. It got overwhelming and here I am with maybe 3-4 post per month about nothing.

It not that I don't have anything to write about because I do. I have lots going on on my mind. I have been really bust with work and school and making the extra time is hard but I have so many things that I would like to get out in the open.

There is a guy I worked with for almost 5 years until I get my new job. He was on the front page of the paper with his wife and three girls. They take in foster children. The three girls are adopted by him and his wife and they are in jeopardy of having them taken from them. There was a very long article in the paper about their situation. I know that his girls are his life.

A few weeks ago they had a 5 year old girls dropped off at the house until court the next morning when the judge would determine what would happen to the girls mother (I think the mother was arrested for drugs and prostitution). The 5 year old girl put a teddy bear under her bed and ran away from the foster home. The girl was not found missing until the next morning. When the police were called they said they found the girl that night about 2 blocks away looking for her mother and they took the child. The woman checked on the children but does not turn on the light to make sure not to wake them.

That family also had a boy that they were hoping to adopt that they have has since he was 3 days old and the police took the child (now 1 years old) away from this family and now they may lose the girls over this.

I know this family and I know how they are with the children. Something like this could have happened to anyone. It is very sad and bad that it happened but this child was determined to leave and she did. But to tear a family apart like that is wrong. I hope that it works out for them in the end. They have taken in more than 300 children in one year and have opened their home to over 1,000 foster children. This is not a way to treat a family that cares. They do not do it for the money....$22 per day is about all they make per child. This is not enough to feed and clothe them. They really do care.

I was nice today

I had a nice relaxing day. I spent the morning with a friend from work and we got a body wrap. It was nice and relaxing and I really enjoyed the quiet time and I even lost 10 inches and the major bonus before we even got started I found out that I lost 2lbs....what great news! That was just the best way to start my day out.

I meet my mother for a movie. I never go out to the movies but I decided that with her health problems that we should try to spend some time together and watching a movie would be perfect because we would not even have to talk to each other. We had a pretty good time and stopped to get dinner. I have had a busy day and I am tired. We are going to the ocean tomorrow and I need to get my beauty rest. I will think of ya'll tomorrow while I am at the beach....not!

I did it

I went back to school and I passed all 3 summer classes. Everyone I talked to told me that they did not think that I could do it but I did! I am so happy! I start fall classes in 2 weeks. I am on vacation this week from work.

Greg is treating me to a body wrap tomorrow for all my hard work and I am going to go see a movie with my mother. Wednesday we are going to the ocean for the day and the rest of the week we will find things to do around the city. I think we are going to the zoo one day.

It will just be nice to not have to work for 9 days and have time off school also.

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Anna starts cheerleading today. We went shopping for outfits for her to workout in. I love the fall lines that our out in the stores now. I can't wait to go shopping for me!

I get to take advantage of a body wrap in a week. I will be off work for 9 days and I don't plan on doing anything!!! I can't wait! I have one more class and then I am done with my summer classes. Not bad for my first time back to school in 10 years. I have my math final in Thursday. Wish me luck!