Tuesday, May 03, 2005


Rebecca and I use to dance at the same club. I still talk to her from time to time. She moves around a lot. When we met she was living with her boyfriend in Virginia. Rebecca danced everywhere you could think of. She has been to Japan, California, Russia, Italy, Maine, New York,Baltimore, etc.. I love this girl but she will never grow up! She will never have anything, she can not be happy. I have known her for almost 8 years now and everytime I see her I worry more about her.

I saw her about 3 weeks ago before she caught her plane to New York and my daughter acts more grown up than she does. The "adult entertainment" life is not working well for her. I wish I could help her out but she is to busy with her "fast life" to slow down and see what it is doing to her.

It is so sad to see what she has turned her life into. Most of the time she goes out and does not remember what she has done. She will leave messages on my cell and you can tell she is f^$# up on something. I hate that she does this to herself but what can I do? We are not super close and we don't talk about her problem......only when she is in the hospital going through detox but that never last to long.

We always meet at a restaurant when she comes to see me because she is not welcome and can not be trusted in my home. I am very careful about who knows where I live. I try to keep my family life private from most people. There are only 3 people that I work with that know where I live and one installed our front door, another had to pick me up for work when my car was in the shop and the last one was a guy who saw me out front of my home one night when there was an accident in out front yard.

My last meeting with Rebecca has left me kind of blank.......I am not sure what to make of it. I am sure that she is getting high and she is running with nasty guys and acts like she could care less. I have not heard from her since the last time I saw her and I am sure I won't hear from her again for about 3 months. That is just her, she will pop in and out of my life. I will be here when she decides to call and I will be a friend....this is how our relationship is.


Blogger JaG said...

Interesting relationship. Rebecca sounds like she's always no the run.

4:32 AM  
Blogger Brandie said...

It's hard to maintain the same kind of relationship with people as you grow up, especially if they don't "grow up" right along with you. Maybe one of these days she'll give up the craziness and settle down to a "real" life, and maybe then she can start to be a "real" friend to you. Here's hoping, anyway, for your friendship's sake. :)

10:46 AM  
Blogger Erin said...

i think the best you can do is just be there for her if she needs it - you don't need to take her in, or give money, but just moral support. she ovbiously cares enough about you to at least come back and see you, but is she asking for things when she does?

11:02 AM  
Blogger J&J'sMom said...

You're a good friend. A lot would just write her off. Our's is not to judge ...;0)

3:53 PM  
Blogger Dawn said...

she is always on the run...she can never stay still:)

We will be friends for a long time I am sure of it. We just don't have what most people would call a "normal" friendship but it is ours and I still love her even if she does so stupid things sometimes.

she does not me for things...if anything she is very giving:) I fell like the mother figure to her sometimes.

j&j's mom~
I know who true frinds are and she has never done me wrong so I am always there for her.

6:17 PM  
Blogger Melinda said...

I have the same type of relationship and feelings about this girl I went to high school with. (All minus the *adult entertainment* part) She kinda floats in and out when she wants or needs something and I'm always there, but always a bit gaurded as well.

8:23 PM  
Blogger ThoughtsGalore said...

Sweetie at least she has you. You sound like her safe person to call and be there for her. You're a good friend. It's hard, I know...but someday it may come back to you when she realizes she needs help.

8:19 AM  
Blogger Dawn said...

I stay gaurded around her. She is like my sister..she pops in and out of my life but I am always there for her.

I try to be there for her and she knows she can talk to me about anything and I will still be there for her:)

4:04 PM  

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