Thursday, June 23, 2005

I feel so stressed

I have a lot of crap going on with my mother and father right now. I will start my story off with the story about my dad.

My dad is going to Wild Wood New Jersey on vacation and asked if me and Anna wanted to come up for a few days because the place that they are staying in is really big and they will have plenty of room. I told my stepmom that I could not make it (not even for a few days) but if they wanted to take Anna for the whole week they could. The response I got was..."I will have to check with your dad because we will have the dogs (2 shelties) and we may not have enough room for Anna all week." I could not believe what she told me. How can they have room for 2 (me and Anna) for 2 or 3 days but not enough room for Anna all week. Am I the only one who see something wrong with the picture? It does not really matter at this point because I forgot that Anna has her last swim class that week.

I spoke to my mother today and she is trying to lay a guilt trip on me because she want to see Anna and she has not seen her in one whole week. She has also made smart comments about the fact that James and Jessica have seen her more than she has (they have not seen Anna). My mother took Anna out for ice cream last week when school let out for the summer. I do not like when things get like this. How dare my mother talk trash about James to me....I am the wrong one to complain to about this. My mother was in court with James in 2002 to help him fight me for custody of Anna. My mother sat on the witness stand and said that Anna would be better off with James than with me. My whole family...brothers, mother, father, step parents, James and his other babies mama got together against me. I was put through hell.

They made me take a drug test that I passes and James failed....and he still got visitation from the courts. My mother called social services on me and I had this lady chasing me down at work to ask me a bunch of questions about me and Anna and how I discipline her at home. I had this woman come to my house, talk to Anna's doctor, watch Anna at her daycare and basically be a pain in our ass. I have a lot of hatred in me because of my family...I have been hurt to many times to count. I did nothing to bring that whole thing on except stay away from all of them. I will go into the history later on in my blog but this is a look at one situation I had to go through because of them. My parents help (paid) for James lawyer when he took me to court to take Anna from me. James only did this because he thought I would have to pay him child support money if he had custody of Anna.

If you have any questions about this post of have any question in general please go to the post at the top of my blog and leave a question to be answered by this weekend.

I hope I did not confuse anyone more with this post.


Blogger Brandie said...

You know I can completely sympathize, girl. I hate how families suck sometimes, don't you? If you need someone to vent to, email me. I'm always glad to lend a sympathetic ear. :)

9:53 PM  
Blogger Marie said...

Wow, Dawn. Thank you for sharing this difficult part of your life that you've had to endure for a while. I honestly don't know what to say other than I was shocked and appalled at reading the treatment you suffered under the hands of your own family. And from what I hear from you about James, I cannot believe that they would side with him even for a second. Girl, you are as tough as nails and I admire your strength. I just wanted to let you know that you can vent openly anytime you want about any or all of this. You know that you have an audience who will lend an ear and just listen.

11:01 AM  
Blogger Angie said...

You poor thing. You are such a strong woman to have put up with all that has happened!

Hang in there!

Michele sent me this time.

8:20 PM  
Blogger Lucy Stern said...

Dawn, Just take care of your daughter and ask for God's help. He will guide you through this. Don't let your family get you down. Your mom sounds like a real pistol. I feel very grateful that my family is loving to each other. Good luck.

10:30 PM  
Blogger puremood said...

I just wanted to extend a hug to you and Anna.

I'll be thinkin' of ya'll

12:54 AM  
Blogger Martine said...

When I look at the family pictures you posted the other day I can say nothing more then you are so much more a gentle human being then I am! I would have said to hell with them all!

I know the past is the past and that one should move on and live in the "now". But I am one that not easy forgives and never forgets.

How the hell do you manage to even talk with all these people still??
Why don't you just close the door and be happy with just you, Greg and Anna?

6:57 AM  
Blogger -xtessa- said...

poor dawn... it sucks when your own family turns on you! move away, girl. move far away.

or better yet, don't let their drama get in the way of you being a great mom. one day, when they see how Anna turned out to be a great young lady, they'll realize that this is all thanks to you.


10:28 PM  

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