Saturday, June 04, 2005

family drama

I had a good time at my brothers graduation. I am very proud of him. Mom was acting all crazy after his graduation. Dad wanted to take everyone out to dinner but mom started to yell at my brother because she said she had to go home and get up early for work (she has a in-home daycare center).My dad had to get up at 3am and I had to get up at 5:30am. Mom had to roll out of bed and walk to the door to let the first kid in(not sure what time but I am sure it is not before 6am). I went to dinner with them and then had Paul drive my car home for me because I did not feel like driving.

I found out the next day that mom told Paul that she may not go to his graduation party because........(well there is not really a good reason for that that I can think of...can you?).

Today I find out that my mother is taking both of my brothers to an amusement park tomorrow. I am really upset that Me and Anna were not asked to go. I would have paid for our tickets. I am not over reacting about this either. They were trying to be sneaky about the whole situation and I do not like that. It is ok though because I am going to adopt a new family that will want me a family functions!

It is a known fact that my mother favors her boys. All you have to do is walk into her house and look at the pictures on her wall. Just so you have a very small background on my mother she loves to scrapbook and she takes millions NO billions of pictures. There is NOT ONE picture of me or my sister to be found in that house! Tell me she does not have her favorite children.

I am so sick of holding things in. I am sick of pretending like I have a normal family! I come from such a twisted family. This is my rant for the day. It may not mean much to you but It is significant to me. I just don't care anymore. I know if I would have been her son I would be loved more. I am loved enough I don't need that love or to be controlled. I know I am beautiful inside and out!

11 Comments:

Blogger Star said...

HI. Nice to "meet" you. Here via Michele.

8:31 PM  
Blogger Mamacita said...

Michele sent me. And if I were your mother, I'd hang pictures of you all over the house.

8:46 PM  
Blogger Kevin said...

Visiting today from Michele's.

Your family sounds more than a little dysfunctional. Speaking from experience, therapy might not be a bad idea. Just a thought.

9:04 PM  
Blogger TrueJerseyGirl said...

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time with your family. It sucks that what should be a nice time (enjoying your brother's graduation) has to turn into something rotten.

I also want to thank you for your comment on my latest post. I know you used to strip and I hope you got from my post that I truly have nothing against strippers or porn or anything - I don't think there is anything wrong with it. Just in the case I was mentioning, I thought it was the wrong way to go. I am glad you are happy with yourself and that you support Anna - that is all that matters! Luv ya!

11:38 PM  
Blogger Bonnie said...

Hello Dawn!
I'm here via Michele. Loving yourself is a big step in dealing with it all.

8:04 AM  
Blogger Jean-Luc Picard said...

Dawn, people should never hold things in. They need to say what they want to.

Michele sent me your way.

9:07 AM  
Anonymous colleen said...

Family dynamics can be so weird. At least we have 2 parents to balance things out. Michele sent me.

9:13 AM  
Blogger Indigo said...

Michele sent me, but I've been here before.

(hugs!)

9:40 AM  
Anonymous Lucy Jane said...

I love your new look on your site!
Sorry that your mom treats you like that, it sucks. But you have a fantastic attitude, so all your dreams will come true.

Take Care
Lucy

Michele sent me

9:56 AM  
Blogger Cara said...

My Mom does the same thing, Dawn...maybe not as bad but it still hurts sometimes. I can't imagine ever loving one child more than another. I love both of my children equally!

11:20 AM  
Blogger J&J'sMom said...

Of course you are beautiful! Have you ever tried to talk to your mom about how you feel? At the very worst you would be validated in your feelings and know where you stand...in the best scenario you'll work things out and you'll discover your mom has a secret album stashed away all about you!! Hang in there sweetie...we're here for you.

4:18 PM  

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